I drink too much. During a regular, friendly conversation I would never say that. But I can say it when it needs to be said. I hate it. I'm not a fall down, blackout drinker, but I drink everyday, because, why not. It is who I am now. I'm cognizant enough to celebrate the fact that I imbibe enough to function while I poison my body. Which is not a celebration. Ok. Your turn.
Redditor u/Doctor_Philly was wondering who wanted to discuss those traits and truths about the self we were all willing to discuss by asking..... What is a truth you don't like accepting about yourself?Don't Look at Me....
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My fear of being judged in a situation suppresses my genuine thoughts about things, and it can make me awkward, unfunny or seem like I'm trying way too hard. It's like all social interactions have some sort of performative aspect to them, and that thought is constantly broadcasted on some primal level of my consciousness.
It causes me to cringe at myself before I even do anything. This typically occurs when I'm around anyone I'm uncomfortable with, and if I do forget about it, and something suddenly happens to draw my attention back to the meta of a given social situation, the feeling tends to double down. I'm not even antisocial (which makes it worse because I genuinely like being around people), but it sabotages a large amount of interactions for me and makes it hard to make friends.
At 35...
November last year years of alcoholism finally caught up to me in the form of chronic liver failure. Originally i was given only a few days to live (i wasn't aware of this because i was in a coma so they informed my mother), with treatment that was extended to weeks and then somehow months.
My liver has managed with extensive treatment to heal to the point where i no longer look jaundice as hell but realistically i have about 7yrs max. Not a great thing to jump into your head first thing in the morning. Especially at 35. People always go on about a healthy heart but once your liver has had enough i all over red rover really quick... booze the socially acceptable legal drug.
Not for 13....
I graduated with my business degree last fall but have yet to leave my full time grocery store job because I'm good at it and it pays the bills.
I'm so afraid I'm going to suck at and fail any new job I get and then lose my stable source of income, so I just keep putting off applying. I've been using the pandemic as an excuse but in reality it's my anxiety about failure.
Meanwhile all my friends are making good money in "real" jobs while I'm still stuck as a wage slave making $13 an hour.
Crutches....
I don't treat my body well and I have a lot of crutches that will impact me later in life.
So enjoy it.
I'm not funny.
Well, as an individual who writes and performs comedy (screenplays, sketches etc) I can tell you that you are funny. Comedy is incredibly subjective. But what I've learned over the years working for tv and film is that you should write and stay with what you know. If you can laugh about it yourself, there will be people out there who will laugh about it too. And if you can't find them, who cares? You think it's funny right? So enjoy it. :)
finding structure....
Im lazy and have no discipline.
If I have no structure, I just don't get anything done. I've had jobs with little to no supervision along with being 100% commission. I always failed. But if I have a job that I have scheduled tasks that must be met, I crush it.
every single moment....
I am a very overbearing person. I don't trust many people, I don't even like many people, but the few I do like, I find it very difficult to not try and involve myself in E V E R Y part of their life, and get upset when they don't like that. I like to tell myself (and them) that it's because I care, and want the best for them, and for them to be happy, but I do understand how overbearing and annoying that can get.
Stay Calm....
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I can get emotional over stupid things. I try not to and I recognize it happening but feel out of control over it.
Recognition is the first step.....
I can naturally be mean if I don't think carefully before I speak.
The fact that you are aware of this makes you so much better than a lot of other people who will go around and be mean without even realizing what they're doing.
Recognition is the first step to improvement, and the fact that you're willing to improve makes you a better person. Go you!
The Average.....
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I am not special or more talented than anyone else, I am literally more or less average. I guess its not bad, I don't hate it, but doesn't mean i like it.
Oh Well....
I give up very easily. I used to be a great student in school not just with studies but everything else as well because I'm a fast learner. But that didn't teach me the value of hard work because everything came easy. And now, in everything I do, if I fail, I just give up.
Edit: Thank you to everyone who replied. I'm so glad I posted this because I have gotten some great advice here and the fact that I'm not alone makes me feel a little better. Thank you.
Also thanks for all the awards. They make me feel all fuzzy inside.
Oxford Daze....
I literally went into an law interview for freaking Oxford so cocky that I'd ace it that I'd never bothered at a legal document before because while I'd got bad grades before it never really affected my opportunities, at least in terms of where I wanted to go.
Suffice to say, I was immediately vibe checked, and while the second interview went better, I am not going to Oxford.
I am certainly working harder at Uni, I want a 1st and have learned my lesson.
No In Between.
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I either think too high of myself or not enough of myself, there is no in between.
I can relate to this. I would see a really stupid thing someone does and think "How are retards like this alive?" and then five minutes later, in a different context, I would say that "I am a waste of space and worthless."
Smarter than the average bear....
I'm below average intelligence.
Everyone likes to think they're so smart because they can see inside their brains and see, with no interference, all their great and original ideas and thoughts.
And I still think smart things sometimes.
But in general, the majority of people I meet, are substantially smarter than me. Not in terms of volume of knowledge, or learned skills, just in that they are better at thinking through things logically, better at problem solving, and more reasonable.
Its humbling.
Days Gone By....
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I'm growing older. I still feel young, but I'm in my 30s.
That means 40s aren't too far away, and I know that this decade flew by fast, I'm certain that the 40s will too, which mean 50s, are also not too far away, then 60s, etc.
There's nothing I can do about it, but I do miss my 20s sometimes and I know I can't ever be that again. That is rough to have to accept.
Saving Face...
I have a serious/angry looking facial expression by default and I have to over compensate by grinning/slightly smiling all the time so people don't think I'm angry or upset.
Get that. It's especially exhausting if you work in customer service, like me. Sometimes I feel like I should find work in a factory instead.
A Terrible Life...
It's not my fault that I had a terrible life, but it's the only one I will ever have and I often struggle to come to terms with the fact that I'll never get to say I had a healthy childhood, teenage years and early adulthood. I ended up being very damn messed up and I envy the people who had it good or at least decent.
I'm fine now, but I lost it on things you go through just as a kid, and it's hard on me.
EDIT: I know people see this as an annoying Reddit trend, but thank you so much! I've been on Reddit for almost two years and it's my first award. Feels like a hug as I just wanted to share my experience, nothing more behind it.
Hush....
I am a naturally quiet person even though I don't want to be and people always say I'm quiet but I can't change.
Me too! Also when I have something to contribute to the conversation people's eyes immediately fixate on me which makes me anxious and more inclined to be quiet again. :(
Do you Validate?
I need validation and to be told I'm doing good. I never had any issues with it growing up, but it feels good now to know I'm doing a good job or the right thing, but i still feel ashamed for wanting to hear it so often.
There's nothing wrong with wanting validation. It's important to understand this. There is no shame in it.
However, what is important is: where the validation comes from.
It should come from you and you alone! Be happy with your work and be proud! It shouldn't matter if other people pat you on the back for it, or even tell you they hate it! It's your own feelings about it that matter!
Work hard and be proud you did so accordingly my friend. :)
Got to have Friends....
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I don't make meaningful friendships, can be friends with someone for years and then they move and within a day it's like they never existed for me.
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I miss people being sane. Though that maybe election cycle issues not COVID. We'll never know.
I thought I was Alone...
Black Friday Nbc GIF by SuperstoreGiphy"Being able to grocery shop after 11 pm."
Reading_Rainboner
"Hell yes. I miss the days where the Walmart across the street was open 24 hours."
Small_Tax_9432
let's just go...
"I miss spontaneity... everything now seems to have a barrier of difficulty."
iidosee
"I live very close to Disneyland so I have an annual pass. My friends and I would just go there after work and hang out and grab a bite to eat."
"Now, we have to reserve a day to go. And most of the time, the days are at 'full' capacity so we couldn't even reserve. I don't want to schedule to hang out at Disneyland for a couple hours for July. So yeah, I definitely miss the 'lets go eat at Disneyland tonight?' texts."
mymymissmai
Not til 24-25
"Functioning global supply chains. Ah, the product you want has got microchips in it? 9 month wait."
richard-king
"Minimum, I'd been saying for a while now that I wouldn't expect a true return to normalcy in terms of electronics prices till 2024-2025. Although Crypto crashing through the floor really took some of the pressure off graphics cards which I really appreciate."
statiiic
WTF?!?!
"How affordable everything was!"
Disastrous_Hour_6776
"Yep. Today I was bagging up my things at the grocery store and I heard the cashier say to the lady behind me 'thats $78.12.' She had -- 2 boxes of Kellogg's corn flakes, a carton of 12 eggs, milk, strawberries, raspberries, blue berries, a small cheese cake, English muffins, coffee, and a small whole frozen chicken that could maybe feed 3 people if the meat portioning was small."
SnowyInuk
Sushi
sushi GIFGiphy"My favorite sushi place. It was good quality, close by, kid-friendly, and not too expensive."
InannasPocket
All of this... it was a simpler time.
NASTY
Janet Jackson Reaction GIFGiphy"As a retail worker, just how f**king NASTY some people have gotten."
DmitriPetrov*itch
"They applauded you for being an essential worker but won’t vote for policies that’ll raise minimum wage while insisting a wage cap for heavily paid employees."
sketchysketchist
CHANGES your DNA...
"Some of the people closest to me became very bitter and petty over the last 2 years. So many people have the 'crazy eyes' now."
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"So true and holidays with the family is like who has the biggest tinfoil hat building contest. How many jumps does your brain have to go through to think that the Covid vaccine CHANGES your DNA into the patented DNA so that the government now controls your body."
"So like vaccinated people now have a singular DNA set. I feel like I still have a chunk of my brain just broken off due to that comment alone. I was also told by same family member that I could never donate blood again due to the vaccine. I guess it is so my patented DNA doesn't affect people?? FYI my vaccinated butt just donated today fine and multiple other times after the vaccine."
tyreka13
Homeward Bound
"House prices."
adrianinked
"I'm resigned to never thinking I have a chance on owning property where I live. I'm 30 and just can't imagine it anymore. And I don't want to live anywhere else so, whatever."
Osdab2daf
"That didn’t happen because of the pandemic. That was already happening regardless."
CH11DW
Oh Mickey
"All Day Breakfast at McDonalds."
hutch2522
"It was honestly hell to do, and not very popular. ITs margins aren't anywhere dinner and lunch specials. ON top of that, the temperatures are such that They require its own grill, meaning that if you have 2 grills in shop, you are down 50% of lunch capacity."
Freyas_Follower
Way back when...
Season 5 Friends Tv Show GIF by FriendsGiphy"Hanging out with friends. And I mean waaaaaay before Covid. Like 2006 back when I had some friends."
LoocsinatasYT
I miss the old days. Maybe we'll get back there.
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I'm waffling between G-O-D and nothing. So please give me some education.
911
Role Playing Reaction GIF by Hyper RPGGiphy"We need to look out for each other because help isn't coming."
cknipe
Peace Out
"More than 2 decades ago, a priest was giving a sermon in my church and he said 'our faith requires you to believe without question. Why call it faith if you have to ask questions?' I haven't returned to church. Not until my wedding day but you know what I mean."
asiangontear
Delusion
"When I was young I used to think that after death you would have access to a PC that you could see absolutely anything about your life. Stats, any question you had no matter how obscure, replays of moments, perspectives of others in relation to you. No matter what you wanted to know, if it was relatable to you, you could see it. I know it's silly, but as time goes on I just want it to be real, and I don't think I'd have any issue allowing myself to fall into that delusion."
eggwardpenisglands
I think nothing happens...
"Realistically, I think nothing happens. We literally experience nothing after death. Same thing that we experience before birth. We don't exist, so it's nothing. I think the tenant that we should follow while living is to try to be happy and healthy while minimizing the damage we do to each other."
"What I would LIKE to happen after death is whatever you believe in, exists. I think Christians should get to go to heaven if they truly believe in it, Hindus and Buddhists get reincarnated, and everyone else also gets to experience what they believe they will experience."
"'I would still experience Nothing. Maybe it's one of those things where at the moment of death their brain makes them experience what feels like an infinitely long moment in time where they experience their afterlife. I just think it would be neat for everybody."
Better_Meat_
Shrug
Happy GIFGiphy"Best advice I received from a dear senior on their way out. 'You win some, you lose some' shrug. Nothing divine, life is that simple and wonderful, accept it and move on."
Tune_Kindly
It all sounds pretty simple. Why are people so up in arms about Atheists?
Whatever
Bored Episode 15 GIF by The SimpsonsGiphy"I believe in a universe that doesn't care, and people that do."
imCIK
Cool with Empty
"Nothing. [Serious]."
rumblingtummy29
"I feel this way about death. When I was 5, my grandfather died and my cousin simple said, he is dead, that means you are gone forever. Everything ends up dying, even plants and animals. I'm now in my 40's and still have this simplistic view of life and death. People think I'm ambivalent to life and death but it's just what it is."
thepigfish82
puppet-masters...
"I think a lot of religious people struggle with the fact that we are all just swirling units of chaos. There is no grand plan or great orchestrator. I think that’s why people who are prone to religion are also susceptible to things like Q anon and the Cabal and all that. They REALLY want to believe that there is some almighty puppet-master who determines all of humanity’s fate."
Lngtmelrker
“we’re living in a society!”
"Just be a kind and empathetic person not because you’re worried about some cosmic justice, but because it’s the right thing to do. If there is some being that created us there’s no way they actually care about believing in it or adhering to some rules from over 2000 years ago."
"Also a big thing for me is that I find the idea that you need religion or the Bible in order to have morals and ethics pretty dumb. It’s pretty f**king clear that most evangelicals have neither. But my main thing is being a good person simply because, as George Costanza once said we’re living in a society!' If you’re only a good person in order to make it to heaven you probably aren’t actually a good and moral person."
conservative_genius
That's All
Circle Of Life Loop GIFGiphy"You're born. You live. You die. That's it. After you die you cease to exist, the same as before you were born."
serefina
Believe what you want. We're all here together. So let's focus there.
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I feel like this article can go on forever. Let's get some highlights.
Wasted Time
Nbc Im Done GIF by SuperstoreGiphy"Meetings that could and should have been an email."
Sirena609
Lotto People
"Getting stuck behind people playing the lottery at a corner store."
thenuggetlover
"I also used to work in a gas station and you’re SO right. I f**king hated the lottery people. Especially since my store had a small staff and there was usually only one of us working at a time, which meant that I couldn’t get any of my other work done as long as they were there."
"And you’re right, it’s also pretty sad to watch. I had one lady who used to come in every day and spent hundreds and HUNDREDS of dollars on scratch tickets. One day, she won $200 after spending probably around $600 and she was so excited and saying she can 'finally pay her bills.'"
i-am-your-god-now
Aware...
"No situational awareness. Job, home, shopping, driving. Think for one minute and go about. OBSERVE!!"
Dizzy-Foundation8122
"My mom is one of those people who leave the shopping cart in the middle of the damn aisle and proceed to walk twenty feet away. After correcting her a million times to no effect I just walk away now so people don’t know I’m with her."
OutrageousEvent
Shut Up!
"Endless barking in the middle of the night, I love animals but that sh*t I can't stand."
Acceptable-Lemon2924
"Endless barking in general drives me up a wall. One of my friends dogs was barking almost an entire gaming session the other day. I wanted to reach through the computer and smack him for letting it go on."
bangersnmash13
Kindness
customer service waiter GIFGiphy"People being mean to service workers, especially if the workers are very young."'
scaryboilednoodles
All of these things. I hate them all.
Admit It
Admit It Tell The Truth GIF by TV LandGiphy"People who never accept fault when they mess something up. Like, why blame a million people when it was clearly you who did it???"
Quirky-Area-8978
From Above
"My upstairs neighbors."
lutzow89
"I had terrible neighbors at my previous apartment. It was a one person studio for students, but her boyfriend was clearly living with her illegally and he was loud."
"One night we knocked n the door at 3 AM because of the loud music and an unknown girl opened the door. I just thought they were having a little party. But the next door I saw the girl living there come home with a suitcase after having been away for the weekend... Her BF was cheating on her in her own apartment."
Th3_Accountant
Move Away
"People who sit directly next to me at the airport, movie theater, any other place where you can choose a seat when there is PLENTY of other seating."
BacardiPardy33
"I can’t YES this enough and the ones who can’t park for crap so they park so close you can’t open doors on one side of the car or the ones who park directly behind when you pulled through so the door won’t open to load groceries."
BacardiPardy33
It's Over
"People who try to restart old drama. Like I'm done with you, just leave me alone."
Tired_Potatos
"Yep, half the reason I've basically quit playing one of my favorite online video games. People keep bringing old crap up or sh*tting on on someone who used to be our friend. I got tired of it so I just ejected the game out of me."
CaucasianHumus
AHHHHH!!!
move leading GIFGiphy"People walking too slow in front of me with no way to get around them. It’s even worse if it’s a couple or group taking up the whole sidewalk. HAVE SOME SPATIAL AWARENESS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!!"
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Life in general pisses me off. I'm easy.
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