The Game....
grand theft auto gta GIFGiphyI got a PS2 and even though I was over 50 at the time I really got into the Grand Theft Auto games.
I played them so much I ended up straining the ligaments in my wrists and needing steroid shots at the bases of my thumbs. I couldn't even hold my toothbrush without great pain. In the end I had to give the console and games to my grandchildren (not the GTA games) and my thumbs have pretty much been fine ever since, but I really do miss playing video games.
The Early 20's....
I got into shooting DRUGS in my early 20s. I always knew it would end bad. But I really didn't feel "too deep" until I was cuffed and crammed in the back of a police paddy wagon for robbing a convenience store. I spent three (deserved) years in prison and every day was the definition of "oh man, I really screwed up here, this mess is crazy."
The Cutoff....
When my ex-gf tried to cut me off from my family. Like "Oh this is abuse isn't it?"
The witch didn't just try to cut him off his family and friends, she actually partially succeeded in doing so, as a few of his friends heard him only through her. There were times that she doesn't even let us, his brothers to speak with him.
Lowkey disturbing. She thought that since he's her bf she owns him and the rights to his social connections.
5 Minutes longer than necessary....
I took salvia once when I had already been drinking a lot. I was in my garage in midst of a circle of maybe 8 people when I took off. All I remember is 'coming back' which felt like spinning really fast and wide circularly through a realm which existed between realities. What made me think this? The place I was spinning in was basically a void with an unending presence of floating "TV screens", or windows to alternate dimensions. As I was spinning through the realm I was trying to figure out which reality was mine so that I could land back properly, and as soon as I chose one the circular spinning started to travel back through my body.
I was aware that I was still sitting in my garage but I could feel my mind going inside and outside my head in circles around the garage. The whole experience lasted about 5 minutes and I will never touch salvia again. Also, I was 2 seats to the right within the circle when I finally recovered, and I definitely didn't move during the whole ordeal. I legitimately still wonder sometimes if I chose the wrong reality to return to.
On the Verge....
coffee sugar GIFGiphyWhen I went to the doctor with unexplained lower back problems and they told me my liver was being damaged by the high sugar diet I was on and that I was on the verge of having diabetes.
Get Out.
In a domestic violence situation, there are so many moments that you can see and sort through in retrospect. The "moment" where my brain said "you need to find a damn way out of this" happened shortly after we had been married. My family was in Vegas, so we went to join for a couple days. I can/could drink, but that week I was just not into it— like when even one drink makes you sleepy. He was irate and annoyed at this.
I didn't insist on him staying with me all day- I was just going to rest.
He eventually left to go drink and gamble, but ultimately came back after about an hour, and crawled into bed with me. I was groggy and half asleep. He then started grinding against me trying to have sex. I said no, Im really not feeling good. I probably even said "sorry" but I don't remember. I rolled over, and he kicked me as hard as he could.
I fell off the bed, terrified. "You are a damn witch, and you are making this up. You are fine." I left my body.
At that point, I knew I had to get out.
Don't Camp....
Went camping with a group of friends, told them I was night blind as a prank. One of them tripped over and tore a ligament while guiding me. Started researching night blindness behaviors to make it seem permanently real from here and that's when i knew i was in too deep.
"Halloween House Party"
The time I was invited by a friend to a "Halloween House Party."
Turns out it was more of a gay/trans "Eyes Wide Shut" type get together that took place in this bizarre mansion. Everyone was in these erotic costumes drinking out of cocktail glasses and I was dressed as Elvis drinking Coors Light.
I knew I was in too deep when within about 8 minutes of arriving I went to get a beer from the kitchen and there was some Freddy Mercury looking mother fool standing there wearing nothing but a spiked collar and nothing else... you know.
754 DAYS....
I checked and I have 754 days played on Ark Survival Evolved for Xbox, that's like if you sat on the couch for 2 years straight and played a video game, then I realized that's not like wasting 2 years of your life on a game it IS wasting 2 years of your life on a game like let me really emphasize here I'm not saying I've played this game for 2 years like that much time passed since I began, I mean I've actually played that many hours over the course of about 5 years. Omg it's mind boggling. Straight up gaming addiction. I have severe anxiety and the game distracts me from it, but it's now it's own problem too. I'm def too deep.
Channel 4 all the way....
E Online GIF by E!GiphyBit niche. But a few years back two friends and I accidentally got into a season wrap up party for TV show Made in Chelsea. We had to pretend all night we were producers from Channel 4. Fortunately I didn't watch the show, so was easy to lie. Brilliant fun, and an open bar!
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