As someone fascinated by movies and Hollywood, I possess a significant amount of knowledge about celebrities.
The Golden Age of Hollywood? Yes. Modern-day performers? You name it.
I also have a morbid mind so as you can imagine, I have a lot of knowledge about celebrity deaths. I sometimes think about Heath Ledger, who died of an accidental overdose in 2008. What must it be like to die that way, and to die alone?
What about Bobby Driscoll, best known for voicing the title character in Disney's Peter Pan?
He died of heart failure, also alone, and his body was discovered in an abandoned building in the East Village of Manhattan. His body was later buried in a pauper's grave and remains on New York's Hart Island.
There are other tragic celebrity deaths that have captured the nation's–and even the world's–imagination.
People shared their thoughts after Redditor Boldstarspindleshawk asked the online community:
"What celebrity suffered the worst death?"
Owen Hart
"He won’t be the biggest celebrity on this list, but the wrestler Owen Hart plunged to his death from 70 feet in the air in front of 20,000 people during a live pay-per-view. He was supposed to descend from the rafters in a superhero-like entrance, but it went terribly wrong."
"WWE insisted on doing the stunt without the proper safety equipment (since they wanted Owen to do a 'quick release'), and they hired a below-par rigging company that would agree to do it (since most wouldn’t). They were grossly negligent."
Cinammon16
Hart's death was also extremely controversial because WWE chose to continue the event even though he was severely injured in front of a live audience! Can you imagine?
Isadora Duncan
"Isadora Duncan, a famous dancer in the 1920’s wore a long scarf. She jumped in a sports car with no roof and the scarf got caught in the spokes of one of the wheels, and she was strangled."
JazzRider
Duncan's death always frightened me.
It's an example of how one thing, one choice, can go horribly wrong.
Kirsty MacColl
"It's Kirsty MacColl to me. Sliced up by the propeller of an illegally operated boat while saving her children from the same, for the boat's rich owner to buy his way out of justice."
Hattix
She died saving her son, who suffered minor head and rib injuries.
She died instantly.
Vic Morrow
"Jennifer Jason Leigh’s father, Vic Morrow. On the set of the Twilight Zone movie. Morrow and two children were killed. The helicopter crashed decapitating him and one of the children. The other child was crushed to death."
Illustrious_Tie491
These deaths caused a major scandal, ultimately impacting the career of director John Landis and resulting in a change to child labor laws in regard to film sets.
Sharon Tate
"Sharon Tates' was pretty bad. Getting stabbed to death while pregnant and begging for your unborn child's life is pretty f**cking brutal."
HempParty
The horrors and crimes committed by the Manson family continue to draw fascination to this very day.
Lou Gehrig
"Lou Gerhig. ALS causes loss of muscle control but many people diagnosed know what's in store for them. They know they will be losing the ability to walk, talk and even breathe."
legumey
The Lou Gehrig Memorial Award is given annually to the MLB player who best exhibits Gehrig's integrity and character.
Judith Barsi
"Judith Barsi voiced characters in The Land Before Time and All Dogs Go to Heaven. She died at the hands of her father in a muder-suicide after years of abuse."
"A murder suicide after a long campaign of both physical and psychological abuse too. She was just 10 years old."
darkwolfuwu
Barsi and her mother were buried in adjoining plots.
Her tombstone includes the phrase "Yep! Yep! Yep!" a phrase uttered by Ducky, the character she voices in the 1988 animated classic The Land Before Time.
Selena
"Selena. Being murdered by someone you thought you could trust and being snuffed out when she was on the cusp of superstardom. All her hard work since a little girl down the drain."
JadeStratus
Selena is more famous now than she was when she was alive.
It's crazy to think about.
Meanwhile, Yolanda Saldivar, who murdered her, is still in prison.
She is eligible for parole in 2025.
Christopher Reeve
"Christopher Reeve (Superman) died after bed sores became infected after breaking his neck and getting paralyzed."
SerVimesGOT
Christopher Reeve led a hard life after his horseback riding accident and yet remained such a kind and generous figure.
Anton Yelchin
"Anton Yelchin. I can't imagine anything worse than slowly dying in a torturous manner with not a soul nearby and zero way to get help or save yourself. I'm not afraid of much, not heights or claustrophobic or drowning, but dying in a helpless manner slowly is one thing that terrifies me truly."
KassSpin
This death was such a shock and a huge blow to Star Trek fans worldwide.
Yelchin was 28 when his SUV rolled down his driveway and pinned him against a brick pillar gate post.
His death was due to blunt traumatic asphyxia.
Jon-Erik Hexum
"Jon-Erik Hexum. He was an actor who was playing around with a gun loaded with blanks during a delay in filming. As a joke, he put the gun to his head and pulled the trigger."
Flashpoint123
This death, much like the death of Brandon Lee and the death of a crew member on the set of the movie Rust, have challenged views about safety on the sets of Hollywood films.
When you learn more about Hollywood, you can very easily fall down a rabbit hole.
James Dean: That car crash sounds terrifying.
Barbara Payton: Became a prostitute and died of alcoholism in her late 30s.
Phil Hartman: Murdered by his wife.
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Survivors Of Suicide Share Why They're Grateful They Didn't Succeed
WARNING: the following article contains discussion of suicide/self-harm.
Life sometimes certainly can feel like you've reached the end of your rope.
People will go through a multitude of experiences before feeling like suicide is the only option. While we hope for a positive outcome and everyone can get the help they need, that doesn't always happen.
But sometimes, people are unsuccessful in their attempt to end their life and have a change of heart. They can share their tales with others in the hopes of dissuading them from making that choice.
Reddit user, Gay_Infidel, wanted to know what things were like on the other side when they asked:
"Suicide attempt survivors, what are some moments you would have missed out on if you had taken your lives?"
Count.
Sometimes that's all you need to do.
Count up the things you have now, the things you will have or the things you want to have.
Seems like that's a common occurrence afterwards.
Tell Yourself What You Might Miss
"I used to do this on the anniversary of my attempt as a way to appreciate being alive for another year. There were some years where it was hard to come up with things to be thankful for. . .but I felt it was important for me to do it anyway. It will be 20 years in February."
"So some major moments I would have missed out on. . .
- Met a wonderful man and support in my life. Got married.
- Buying (and paying off) my car.
- Dog sledding on a glacier.
- Visited another country. (Turkey)
- Graduated college.
- Experienced the wonderful world of Cosplay.
- Experienced the wonderful world of LARPing.
- Adopted two wonderful dogs, Darwin and Eevee.
- Had my artwork featured on site for a very popular videogame.
- Got to see my favorite band live in concert three times."
You Find Your Calling
"Moving to supported living, learning to live independently and discovering my calling as a manga artist."
Mrgreen37
"I’m so happy for you. I’m a social worker and there is such a stigma around supported living. There is absolutely no shame in needing some help! More people need to realize this."
loveroflongbois
"Just want to say, supported living helped me tremendously! I lived in that arrangement while I got my first degree and I couldn't have succeeded as I did without it. I visited the NY Congress people to show them success comes from those arrangements."
"I became a Licensed Social Worker (LMSW) and I know sometimes it's hard to know if/when you're helping people, but success happens!"
AhFFSImTooOldForThis
A Moment Too Many
"I would have missed out on the birth of my nephew."
"I would have missed out on my niece's first steps."
"I would have missed out on the chance to see them grow up."
"I would have missed out on all the good times we've shared together."
"I'm glad I didn't take my life. There are too many good moments worth living for."
SnooDonkeys5625
Not every experience leaves you with a positive feeling.
But it's a feeling, and sometimes that appears to be enough.
At Least You Can Laugh About It With The Rest Of The Internet
"After my second attempt, I was in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. The responder with me asked me to name something I was looking forward to that I would have missed if I had succeeded that day."
"I said the last season of Game of Thrones. Those last three episodes felt like a personal giant middle finger to me."
NowWithMoreChocolate
Every Rose Has Its Thorns, But That's Okay. They Still Smell Nice.
"Mmm..not really any of note. I wasnt overall wrong...life has become worse."
"But I dont regret surviving either and Ive come to embrace the pain of life."
"Like, whether or not I kill myself, I will still die. I might as well stick around..why rush towards something you will be at no matter what?"
"Might as well stop and smell the roses.."
"Maybe something I would have missed out on is realizing how absurd people are. Like, I have people on a daily basis pressuring me because I'm 5 minutes late, or they haven't done something by the exact letter of the book...and I'm like, dude, you know you are going to die, right?"
"Like..in the end, none of this matters? And you're complaining about someone being a couple minutes late?"
"Watching people lose their sh*t over the most irrelevant stuff..for me, that's a bit fun lol."
xisnotx
Sometimes, all you need to know is there's one more day, one more person, which you really need to stick around to witness.
Something Small, But Meaningful. And Floofy.
"Honestly nothing that I really care about besides getting a cat."
_escapist_
"The cat is enough. There have been times in my life when I lived solely for my cats. Your cat deserves to have you and your love, and you deserve their love too. That’s beautiful, my friend."
loveroflongbois
"I used to be suicidal. Was seconds away at one point. But now I live alone with my cat and everything is perfect. Well not perfect, but I know I won’t ever be close to attempting anytime soon because I couldn’t leave my cat"
MFlinn4
A Person Who Needs You
"The birth of my son, who has helped me grow in ways that I never thought possible. Seeing him grow up to be the adorable little goofball that he is."
Swimming_Garlic_9536
"My son saved my life. I had attempted for the fourth time about 15 months before I got pregnant. But once that kid was born, it all changed. I would have missed everything that kid has given me."
happytrees822
Just One More Day...
"I met my now-husband two days after my attempt."
"Two days."
"So now my biggest advice is to get through today, because tomorrow might be the day things start to turn around and you won't know unless you're there to find out..."
"...I met my husband because I lived another day, that's it. It's not some magic ritual."
"But statistically, yes, if you don't die today you'll probably end up meeting the love of your life someday, that's why this thread is populated with similar stories. Listen."
"I know things are bleak right now and that seems impossible because I was there. I felt that."
"And I know a relationship isn't a cure-all for depression because it took a good struggle of a few years of self-hate that my husband had to deal with, but stuck with me through."
"8 years later, I still have bad days, bad weeks. You're going to. And that's okay because you're going to have good days and good weeks, too. It does get better with time, but you won't know unless you're there to find out."
"I met my partner about a week later! We've been together eight years now. We're both so different (and in much better places!) than we were when we first met, and I'm so glad I didn't miss the chance to get to know my favorite person ever."
Necromantic_Inside
**If you or someone you know is struggling, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
To find help outside the United States, the International Association for Suicide Prevention has resources available at https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/
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Suicide is a complicated topic. More often than not there is never a good time to bring it up. People have deep feelings concerning the matter. And assisted suicide has been a hot button issue for years. Other countries outside the US do it and it has been very successful. But America doesn't seem to be ready.
One thing is for sure, it is a private, intimate choice that only one person can make. So how do we sit and have a chat about it? None of us wants to die alone and suffering. So if we have a choice to avoid that, aren't we allowed to take it? Let's see what the world thinks.
Redditor u/Scarlet3665 wanted to see who was willing to discuss one of life's most controversial topics, by asking:
What do you think about assisted suicide?
Death is never something we want to face, but it's coming for us; one way or another. And I feel like there maybe some comfort in being able to control it. Just a random thought.
Think it Through
"I think people should have the right to decide they no longer want to be on this earth. Especially if they are very sick. In my state you can do assisted suicide when you are terminal, but you do have to attend several counseling sessions first. At this point you have to be terminally ill here but I have heard of other countries that also include chronic medical and mental conditions that are not considered terminal even though you might suffer for the rest of your life, but will not die from said conditions."
What we Deserve
"As someone who had to watch a man starve himself to death because he was terminally ill and Dr assisted suicide is illegal in that state, I agree. Terminally ill people deserve the option. He was in so much pain and also couldn't remember his family half the time. He couldn't take it anymore and wanted to go on his own terms."
"It would have been more humane to have doctor assisted rather than him having to put himself through extra pain so that he could die but also not crap over his family in the process. (Because if he did it any other way they would have been considered "complicit", whereas stopping eating was just considered "senile."
The Humane Thing
"Somehow it is the humane thing to do with any other animal. To 'put them out of their misery,' as it were. Yet somehow some humans don't get the need for others to do the same for themselves. I'll never understand why it's even up for debate. I can't believe anyone who's seen cancer painfully ravage a body for months on end while the person's only fate is not to enjoy life, but wait to die, cannot possibly think there's a case against it."
Let her go...
"My wife worked at a place that was basically day care for elderly. A woman there could not take care of herself, she could barely walk or use her hands. Her son had died, and she had no other family. She was being taken care of by her sons ex-wife and the new husband. She knew she was just a burden and wanted to die. People really should have the right to decide."
Control
"We all die. I'd rather go surrounded by people I love and care about, while I still have control of my mind and bowels. Having my relatives bankrupt themselves to pay to warehouse me somewhere surrounded by other senile, miserable people in agonising pain and underpaid uncaring staff seems less appealing."
All viable stands to take. Watching loved ones wither away is one life's worst pains. So this decision impacts many. Make it with care.
One Pill
"My grandma was 89 and wasn't dying of anything in particular—she didn't have cancer or dementia or anything—but her memory was slowly failing and her body was generally falling apart from old age and a leg injury from fifty years prior. She had been a widow for fourteen years. She was lonely and in pain all the time, and her family lived across the ocean so we couldn't see her as much as we'd want to."
"There was nothing actively killing her, but she did NOT want to be alive anymore. She wasn't depressed, just old and in pain and ready to be done. She was able to go to a place in Switzerland, with all four of her children, and take a pill to end her life while her children sang to her and she looked out at the mountains."
"We all got to say goodbye to her and she got to be completely in control of the end of her life. I can only hope that if I am ever in that situation, then world will be kind enough to let me close my own exit as beautifully and peacefully as my grandma did."
- EThDOtaG
Like Animals
"We give animals the dignity, respect and love of putting them down if they're dying in pain, we should do the same for humans."
- Bpool91
"Agreed, plus animals can't even consent to it like people can! It's crazy to me that in some places a person, especially one living a life of constant pain, or having a terminal illness can't decide for themselves. It's barbaric when you think about it."
- weswhile
Society Thoughts
"I think if you want to end your life it is nobody's place to decide otherwise for you. And since you have to assume that those determined to die will find another way which usually involves financial transaction with criminals or involvement of innocent people (say when you jump in front of a train), it seems reasonable to me to provide suicide options without great social impact. That being said - I think this only is a realistic option for a society that has a positive base attitude towards human lives which I think is not the case in most western countries nowadays."
Invasive Watchers
"It should be every person's right to painlessly end their banal existence if they so desire. You know why churches and governments make up excuses as to why you should/ shouldn't be allowed to commit suicide? Because a crap ton of people would be doing it."
"But the cause of suffering remains, suicide is more a reflection on society and how it/we have failed to accommodate everyone or by placing people in stressful conditions creating mental breakdowns for capitalistic goals or for the unrealistic American dream."
Becoming Common
"Nowhere near common enough. Everyone should have the option to check out at any time, and most nations/states are big enough to help with this. As it stands, suicide is often incredibly messy and traumatic, impacting many people negatively when it happens (friends, family members, police, healthcare workers, etc.). This is all avoidable for the most part. I think it should be carefully regulated to ensure the system works as well as possible, but that it is there in case anyone needs it."
Maybe it's time we think about assisted suicide in the mainstream.
If you or someone you know is struggling, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
To find help outside the United States, the International Association for Suicide Prevention has resources available at https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/
People Who've Called The National Suicide Prevention Hotline Explain What It's Really Like
*The following article contains discussion of suicide/self-harm.
If you or someone you know is struggling, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
To find help outside the United States, the International Association for Suicide Prevention has resources available at https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/
Calling the suicide hotline is an unfortunate, but necessary step. Nobody wants to be in that place.
But if someone is feeling that way, going to a friend or family member can be especially daunting. If they are going to turn to help, many would prefer keeping the entire situation under wraps.
And there's a phone number to call for that. In fact, there are many. Of course, the national hotline is well known. But several local versions of the suicide hotline abound as well.
Some Redditors gathered to share their experiences with such a service. For some, it was life-saving. Others were baffled by how inept it was, especially considering the seriousness of that service in particular.
If there was ever a Yelp page for the hotline, this Reddit thread was it.
ballistictipp asked, "What exactly happens if someone were to call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline? How do they try to help you? Are there other hotlines that are better?"
The Poster Child
"I called the VA suicide hotline once. It rang once or twice and a woman picked up. We talked for at least 3 hours, she was amazing. She really actually cared, asked questions, sympathized with me, she saved my life."
"I got an emergency appointment with a VA therapist that next day. At least in my case, it worked the exact way it should."
-- physicsguy84
Just There
"I've called once before when I was really upset about a friend situation I think and just some hard-to-swallow circumstances in my life. I talked to a really nice woman who sounded like she was in her 30s-40s and she listened to me as I cried and hyperventilated a little."
"I explained my situation, she empathized with me, and eventually I think she asked what I like to do for fun or to feel better and so we decided I'd watch a comedy special that night after I took a shower and just focus on me for a couple hours before I went to bed."
"At the very end of the call she made sure I didn't want to actively hurt myself or anything and I felt a lot better. I wish I remembered her name but she helped me a lot."
All About Tone
"The first time I called, I still remember to this day. I was in between therapist appointments, and I was struggling really bad. I called and got connected to some guy, and he asked me what he could help me with. I guess I didn't think that far ahead, and after about 10 seconds I just kind of stuttered out an 'I don't know.'"
"And god it must've just been the way he said it, but he just said, 'What's goin on man?' like an old pal that was ready to help. I broke down and told him everything. He talked to me like I was an equal, something I really needed at that time."
"Once I felt better, and like I could get through my day, I thanked him for his time, and the service he was providing. He had a few questions in there that I knew he had to ask. Was I planning anything, was I in danger, etc. But he sprinkled them throughout."
"We talked for about 25 minutes. A few days later I made a small donation to the hotline. They helped me, and I want them to be there to help others."
A More Clinical Description, From a Worker
"When someone calls who is suicidal, the first thing that's done is assessing safety to determine if they are in danger at the moment or in the near future."
"95% of suicide callers are not in danger when they call. In those cases they will gather information, empathize, and help you organize feelings that may be overwhelming you."
"After that you'll start moving towards 'solutions.' A good hotline will not give advice or solutions. Instead, they will talk through solutions that you come up with. It's better to empower people to execute their own solutions than to give outside advice."
"Ultimately though, the conversation is guided by you. If you just want to vent about suicidal feelings, you can. If you're feeling overwhelmed in a moment, you can just call and talk."
"If you have other questions, feel free to ask."
-- wampusboy
Strengthened by its Anonymity
"Well....For the first minute as you sit crying in the dark, you listen to some pretty dope relaxing elevator music."
"Then they connect you to someone. You awkwardly try to stumble through your problem as they listen carefully. They give you some advice, the conversation goes back and forth, and then you go on your way."
"I always thought it would be some life changing event when I called. Even though I logically knew nothing would happen, the back of my mind painted it as though time would stop. As though the police would show up 30 second after I called. As though everybody would know me as 'The one suicidal dude.' As if I'd would be going through therapy and taking medication for years after the event."
"That's probably what stopped me from calling for so long."
"Anyways, I talked through my problems, hung up, and then went on with life. Even so, it felt great to get so much off my chest, and to know that one person out there knew my struggle. It all kinda got better from there, and all it took was talking. Kinda cliché but true."
"There's more specialized lines that are better if you have a more specific issue or that target a specific group, otherwise NSPH is a good a choice as any."
-- Oizyson
Hit or Miss
"Well on one side you have those on the hotline that genuinely want to help people, and they will listen and suggest things as the conversation develops..."
-- thelagking61
Only as Good as the Employee on the Line
"I had a bad experience with them. I was fortunate enough that a friend called me right after and was astute enough to hear in my voice that I needed someone to talk to."
"Mainly, the person told me a story similar to mine where everyone pushed through it and ended up ok. When I said I was still fearful of my future and didn't know whether I really wanted to face it, she was upset. She actually said, 'didn't you hear the story I just told you?'"
"I told her that I thought I got as much 'comfort' as I could stand from her at the moment and hung up."
"Like I said, my friend called right after just to visit. Though my irritation at her tone was enough to break my despair a little."
-- angie_i_am
An Unexpected Concrete Impact
"I called while I was at work a couple months ago. I was cutting a lot and thought I cut really deep. I was talking with them for about 15-20 minutes when an ambulance and the cops showed up." -- Princevaliant377
"I'm shocked you weren't involuntarily commited. I was several years ago and although it was....one of the worst experiences of my life (you basically become the state's property), it also changed my life for the better." -- synyaks
"Think about the money we'd save not dispatching police immediately to things like this." -- Sibraxlis
Sometimes Just Listening Goes So Far
"I called once a couple of years ago. In Australia it's called Lifeline (131114 btw). I was very drunk, had a massive knife and my husband was away at work."
"From what I remember, the woman on the other end of the line listened and asked about my situation. I can't remember exactly what she said but I know she stayed very calm and I knew I had her undivided attention. I knew that she cared at that moment and she talked me down."
"I guess because I called, that was what I really wanted. We were on the phone for maybe 15/20 minutes. I wish I could thank her in person."
-- IfIhadaMoog
Redditor u/Slow_Koala wanted to hear from those who have been touched by the sadness of losing others to suicide. Maybe anyone reading can find some solace or a reason to reach out. Life is often unbearable and lonely but there is always a chance for life to turn around. Extinguishing your life is an extreme you can never take back. You are loved. And to those left behind it can often feel like a prison sentence that never sets you free. We all need to check in on one another more. Be kind.
People who were mentioned in someone's suicide note, what's your story?
1.
My amazing cousin killed himself when I was 16. He was 26. We found the note a few weeks later. He'd singled out immediate family members with a love / good bye note. No one else except his 4 siblings and parents. Then there was my mum, my brother, and then me at the bottom. "You're going to grow up and be amazing; you're going to be a star."
You don't know weight till your fav person in the world thinks the world of you, and that's the last thing they think before they die. And you have no idea how to live up to it. Haunting and inspiring. You don't forget it. gmewhite
2.
I was a teenager and a close friend killed herself. She wanted me to have her music collection, leather jacket, and a screenplay she wrote. Eyeletblack
3.
My mom committed suicide after finding out that her tumor was malignant, she had just lost her father a year before and her mother died in treatment for cancer,she laid everything out notes to specific people and how she wanted things done. I have always been an old soul and she planned for me to find her as I would be the reasonable person I am. But that day I was invited to try out for the debate team so I came home late..... and my little sister was the one who found her. pootiemane
4.
He just got back from Iraq - Marine. He called me up. I wasn't very close to him but we both served. Michael. We talked for about two weeks before it happened. He talked about how much he loved his Mom; his brothers in the service. I thought everything was normal - that's crap we all talk about after coming home.
He shot himself over the phone. I still can't get the sound out of my head. Navy took two weeks to send a chaplain. Then NCIS was involved.
When I returned home I found out that he had left a ruck for me. He left a rucksack for me and I couldn't do anything for him. He gave it to his parents and had asked them to give it to me. DevilsAdvocate9
5.
One of my best friend's mother committed suicide and had a little message for her two children in her suicide note. It was mostly straight down the line apologetic, and an explanation as to why.
Spinal Cancer which metastasized and it was only downhill for her. She did her taxes, paid all her bills, got all her paperwork in order. Wrote a farewell note and swallowed a bottle of painkillers.
I only managed to see a small section of the note as I was the second non-emergency person on the scene (my friend was the first), but enough to know it was her way of trying to make things as painless as possible for everyone else. Engineer_Man
6.
Best friend hung himself in his room, New Year's Day 2015 - left one note saying "I'm so sorry mum." on his bed. She found him. So he didn't mention me, but it's the same topic I suppose.
His mum and I scattered his ashes together, and she gave me a jacket and necklace of his that he always had on. Haven't taken the necklace off since, and I have a tattoo of his birthday on my arm - it really affected me heavily, and I developed bad anger issues from it all. I'm much better now though. puffpuffpoo
7.
Even though nobody was mentioned, this specific note stays close to my heart to this day.
My dad is a retired detective, and one day a few years ago he came home from work visually distraught. I usually talk to him about his day so I asked him what was wrong and he told me a young man (I think around 22) had committed suicide and the note broke his heart. I asked what it said and it read something like "Mom, Dad, I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger. I hope to see you both someday in a place that's beautiful". MikeCozzi
8.
I remember when a friend of mine for ten years died. It wasn't a traditional suicide note. He told me over Skype. I still have the conversation saved. He told me how good I was to him. he told me how I was like the angel Michael to him. He called me his brother.
I tried to stop him. I tried to contact his relatives. His sister didn't care. I still remember that night. I kinda remember him waiting for Diablo 3 to be released. He died before it did though.
I wish he was still alive. We would have laughed at the irony, Diablo 3 was @%& terrible when it came out. Oh my dear beautiful J, you would have really hated the piece of crap it was on release and we could have both laughed at the irony that you stayed alive long enough to see it. Illigard
9.
Used to know this woman, who's ex husband killed himself and used his suicide note to tell his children (6 and 8 yo) that their mummy killed him and not only was it her fault, but theirs too. And the police dealing with it had to be physically stopped by the mother from reading it to her damn kids. One of the more fucked up stories from where I live. CollaborativeKale
10.
My girlfriend killed herself a little over a year ago. We were fighting and I was planning to leave her. She sent me a message that she hoped her death weighed heavy on me for a long time while I was sleeping. She was dead in the bed next to me when I woke up. Now... regrets and nightmares. It's 4:30am. I'll go to sleep when the sun comes up, sleeping at night it's difficult. 502red428
11.
Around May two years ago, my mother tried to commit suicide and I remember finding the note after I found her. When I went to "find her" I thought she was somebody trying to break into our house so I went and grabbed a knife, it turns out the noise I heard was her body flopping against the door. I ended up being able to make sure she was okay but I think what killed me most was her note. She stated that my two sisters and I were all she had and (since we were growing up) she didn't have us anymore. She wanted to leave this world so badly. HedgeHog02
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I was thanked in my friends suicide note. I was with him the night he passed. I didn't know he was going to do it, he just said he was upset and wanted to meet up for a smoke and a chat.
I believe I was the last person to see him alive. It really hit me hard when I found out he had passed.
He was a good friend. We'd known each other for about a decade. Went to the same school and lived around the corner from each other. He told me his secrets that he couldn't tell his girlfriend or family. AJTwinky
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Not really a suicide one but a end-of-life-goodbye one. He was sick and almost got through it, but at the end with weak immune system, cold was enough to get inflammations on everything... He was almost 18. Till this day the perfect person for me. And most important of all, the only real rock i had who was there from the moment we first met. He wanted to make me laugh. He always did that. Made a few jokes. Terrible ones, dad ones. Still made me laugh, and made the pain more durable. I miss those lame jokes... hero3na
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It was my dad's note. Telling us boys that he is so proud of the men we've become and even just writing that now makes me cry happy and sad tears. It's been just over four years now.
He was a great dad and had such a profoundly positive impact on who I am today. Even with how it ended, I couldn't ask for a better dad. He was something else. I'm a lucky kid.
Wish he could see me now. I'm glad he knew my wife before he went. Wish he could meet my nephew.
I love you dad. I still miss the hell out of you, you ornery old hippie. You're still my hero. Thank you. For everything.
Welp, wasn't expecting that wave. Thank you. It's been a minute since I cried for him. aph0r1zm
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He sent me a separate note the day before he did it.
"Thanks for existing, i love you"
I just answered with "love you too, bud". I had no idea. Aenator
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My stepdad committed suicide when I was about 7 years old. In his letter he wrote he was lonely since my mother left him. He mentioned that he couldn't live anymore because I didn't want to see him anymore and didn't want to talk to him on the phone when he called my mother the last time. I found him hanging on my grandmother's attic where I played hide and seek with my cousin. At this time he was 3 weeks dead.
It's difficult to think about it. Even though I know I was just a child and I had my reasons (he was an alcoholic who was violent when he drank), I still feel guilty. And for that feeling I hate him. On the other hand I know he was a wreck, destroyed by his parents. But neither my mother nor I were responsible for this. littleweirdbutok
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No note, just a phone call to preteen me that had stayed up too late because my single-parent mother had gone out looking to score whatever pills would sate her addiction (kid me had no idea, adult me now knows it was obvious). I don't remember the call completely, but I do remember being annoyed she'd kicked me off the dialup by calling in.
She said and made me promise a bunch of things that felt very serious but also very confusing and then we hung up. Police officer knocked on the door a few hours later and everything changed. No one but me knows about that phone call, especially not my brother.
I'll be the exact same age she was, down to the hour, in roughly 500 days. I keep a countdown timer on my phone. One of the promises she made me make was to live longer than she did. Oceanis46dot1
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He wanted me to know he loved me. That it wasn't my fault. That I was "the best friend anyone could want or have." That I should have his car. That he thought he was going mad and was saving his brother and me from the maddness.
I showed the note to my therapist. She thinks he had schizophrenia. His Mom did.
Its been 6 years. Im still not over his death. Doubt I ever will be. DANDELIONBOMB
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I had lived with Craig for about eight months before he killed himself. I'd known him for four years before that. We met at a metal gig and he was a short, thin guy who almost got trampled in a mosh pit. We knew he was going a bad way as soon as he started hanging out with the group we all knew did heroin and similar regularly (maybe two months after we started living together). I tried to help him as much as I could.
There were so many nights when he got back, clearly out of his mind on whatever it was he'd been doing and he'd stay on the couch in my room instead of going to his own. He didn't like to be alone. I spent a lot of mornings cooking for him and generally making sure he was okay, but it was like shoveling snow in a blizzard. He'd just go do the same the next night. At the end of that eight months we found him in his room having overdosed. We realized it was intentional when we read his note.
A lot of it was about his family problems, his mental health and just generally how terrible he thought the world was. Then near the end was a little paragraph about me, thanking me but saying I made the decision to end his life more complicated. He asked me not to blame myself. He then rambled some more and it was clear he'd been high whilst writing it. I moved out a month later. FifthForestMonk
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When my stepdad, and the father of my three younger brothers killed himself last month, he didn't leave a note. What he did do (I didn't even know that was possible) was queue up three texts, so they wouldn't be received until the morning after. At exactly 8 am, all three of my brothers received a text from him.
To my two oldest brothers (19 and 17): "I love you forever. I'm sorry, I just can't live with this any longer."
To my youngest brother (13): "You are a very special boy and I'll love you forever xx".
I asked my youngest brother if it had made it better or worse. He said worse. LifeIsAKindergarten
If you or someone you know is struggling, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).To find help outside the United States, the International Association for Suicide Prevention has resources available at https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/