I'm Awake
David Dore Hello GIF by Sick AnimationGiphyI don't remember anything from the whole day. It happened one afternoon. Only thing I remember is waking in the hospital two days later to a surprised nurse. Turns out they thought I was going to be in a coma.
Massive trauma...
I was in a motorbike accident in 2013. It eventually resulted in internal bleeding from damage to my spleen and liver (plus more - I was pretty messed up. Just the spleen was really bleeding though). I ended up with 13 units added to me over multiple transfusions.
I had a few small incision surgeries to try to stop the bleeding before they really opened me up. The morning I was supposed to have a big surgery I was waiting in the ICU.
I am told that I "coded" one morning. Effectively I was on the edge of death and my heart stopped. It was definitely not so far as to be pronounced dead but I guess it was closer than most people prefer.
Between physical trauma, massive blood loss, and massive-er pain killers my memory of the time in the ICU is spotty at best. I have absolutely no memory of coding. It isn't very exciting from my prospective, but my brother says it was pretty intense for everyone else in the room.
Luckily I have a totally normal life now. If I'm wearing jeans and a t-shirt all my scars are hidden and no one knows any different. In the pool, there are a lot of scars to see. Kids stare. It doesn't bother me.
Thanks to all the medical staff out there that do so much to keep people like me alive!!!
A Long Nap
I wasn't actually pronounced dead, I was in a coma on life support. I was drugged at a bar and overdosed on the drug. I don't really remember much but I know I walked home from the har and my sister said when I got there I immediately fell down and wasn't waking up. She rushed me to the hospital and said I wasn't breathing and my lips were blue when I got there. I was immediately put on machines and miraculously woke up about 24 hours later.
The thing is, I have zero memory and it didn't feel like that long. It was like waking up from a nap when I did wake up and I didn't understand what the deal was when my friend ran out of the room like "she's awake! Get in here!". To this day, my near death is a huge disappointment. I didn't have any dreams, I didn't get to see any dead relatives, I didn't meet God or any Angels, nor my spirit guide. It was just a $12,000 nap.
Going Black
GiphyI got hit by a car. I could still see with my eye that didn't have blood in it. I could hear all the commotion.
I felt getting forced into my back and then CPR. I felt my first heartbeat and then blood flowing through my body and at that point I felt all the pain took a deep breath and then everything went black.
3 Days Later
My buddy had heart surgery last year that got complicated, to the point where it took about triple the time it was supposed to. (He has spoken at length with me about the experience because it was so traumatic.) He did require resuscitation from a full arrest mid-surgery, which sadly (fortunately?) he does not remember.
What he does slightly remember, is the THREE DAYS of post-surgical psychosis as the specific cocktail of sedation played poorly with his personal brain chemistry.
For him it was a relentless stream of horrible hallucinations, demons, fighting monsters, quicksand, carnivorous hospital beds, being swallowed by the orderlies who morphed into tentacle monsters, pulling out his own Foley catheter while it was still inflated, all sorts of terrible, horrible memories he wish he could erase.
So if he even remembered specifically the being dead portion of the program, it is unlikely that would even compare to the subsequent 3 days of his life.
"widowmaker"
I had a "widowmaker" heart attack. If my GF hadn't been there and acted quickly, I'd be dead. But she administered CPR and the ambulance got there fast and revived me with the defibrillator paddles. Got to the hospital and was given an emergency stent and stabilized. But I was technically dead for 4 1/2 minutes. The doctors told my family and GF that I'd most likely remain in a coma due to how long I was gone.
Then shortly after I woke up. Super out of it. I was looking around trying to figure out what happened and I guess some change in my vitals prompted a nurse to come check on me. She saw me awake and looking at her and said something to the effect of, "Oh crap wow, okay" and went and got a doctor.
They explained everything as they were extubating me. (Which sucks, 1/10 do not recommend).
I was really fuzzy and confused for a few days, so this is as accurate as I can remember it. Zero memory from feeling fine the morning of the heart attack, to coming to in the hospital.
Cheese or Cool Ranch?
Yea they told me i was dead for 3 minutes, i remember those clips of people saying they experienced some kind of near-afterlife, but for me it was like sleeping, i woke up, they told me how i almost died, i said oh yeah? they explained a bunch of stuff and then offered me a grilled cheese... I had Doritos too. 10/10 would die again, it's just nothingness, not scary at all.
Edit : guys please I don't need rewards save your money, there's a lot of comments here, and people seem to have fear of being nothing, and that's ok i would have too but it's not really like that, you don't have to DO anything, it's just an absence of all things, no thoughts, no fears, just absolute zero. much deeper than a dreamless sleep, more like anaesthesia.
You're around and doin' things, and then you wake up, somewhere else, confused as all like no time at all has passed, kind of like that long stretch of time before you were born, remember that? yeah neither do I, you had nothing to fear then did you? it will be ok, just enjoy your time while you're here and give people you love BIG hugs even if your dad doesn't want one and is pretending to be a tough guy with no emotion (give him an even bigger hug).
A Hard Kick
worlds funniest fails GIF by Fox TVGiphyDied from an overdose for a few minutes.
There really wasn't anything. Just blackness and a vague lapse of time. It was almost like waking up from a crappy night's rest and feeling like a horse had kicked me in the chest.
Floaters
Anaphylactic reaction to an already deadly Irukandji jellyfish sting. I coded. Saw this white light and could see my myself "floating upwards" saw my family and the drs and nurses who were working on me. Came back and was in intense pain.
Stay Still
I was pronounced dead but never resuscitated I think it might be why my family freaks out whenever I move something in the house.
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