I drink too much. During a regular, friendly conversation I would never say that. But I can say it when it needs to be said. I hate it. I'm not a fall down, blackout drinker, but I drink everyday, because, why not. It is who I am now. I'm cognizant enough to celebrate the fact that I imbibe enough to function while I poison my body. Which is not a celebration. Ok. Your turn.
Redditor u/Doctor_Philly was wondering who wanted to discuss those traits and truths about the self we were all willing to discuss by asking..... What is a truth you don't like accepting about yourself?Don't Look at Me....
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My fear of being judged in a situation suppresses my genuine thoughts about things, and it can make me awkward, unfunny or seem like I'm trying way too hard. It's like all social interactions have some sort of performative aspect to them, and that thought is constantly broadcasted on some primal level of my consciousness.
It causes me to cringe at myself before I even do anything. This typically occurs when I'm around anyone I'm uncomfortable with, and if I do forget about it, and something suddenly happens to draw my attention back to the meta of a given social situation, the feeling tends to double down. I'm not even antisocial (which makes it worse because I genuinely like being around people), but it sabotages a large amount of interactions for me and makes it hard to make friends.
At 35...
November last year years of alcoholism finally caught up to me in the form of chronic liver failure. Originally i was given only a few days to live (i wasn't aware of this because i was in a coma so they informed my mother), with treatment that was extended to weeks and then somehow months.
My liver has managed with extensive treatment to heal to the point where i no longer look jaundice as hell but realistically i have about 7yrs max. Not a great thing to jump into your head first thing in the morning. Especially at 35. People always go on about a healthy heart but once your liver has had enough i all over red rover really quick... booze the socially acceptable legal drug.
Not for 13....
I graduated with my business degree last fall but have yet to leave my full time grocery store job because I'm good at it and it pays the bills.
I'm so afraid I'm going to suck at and fail any new job I get and then lose my stable source of income, so I just keep putting off applying. I've been using the pandemic as an excuse but in reality it's my anxiety about failure.
Meanwhile all my friends are making good money in "real" jobs while I'm still stuck as a wage slave making $13 an hour.
Crutches....
I don't treat my body well and I have a lot of crutches that will impact me later in life.
So enjoy it.
I'm not funny.
Well, as an individual who writes and performs comedy (screenplays, sketches etc) I can tell you that you are funny. Comedy is incredibly subjective. But what I've learned over the years working for tv and film is that you should write and stay with what you know. If you can laugh about it yourself, there will be people out there who will laugh about it too. And if you can't find them, who cares? You think it's funny right? So enjoy it. :)
finding structure....
Im lazy and have no discipline.
If I have no structure, I just don't get anything done. I've had jobs with little to no supervision along with being 100% commission. I always failed. But if I have a job that I have scheduled tasks that must be met, I crush it.
every single moment....
I am a very overbearing person. I don't trust many people, I don't even like many people, but the few I do like, I find it very difficult to not try and involve myself in E V E R Y part of their life, and get upset when they don't like that. I like to tell myself (and them) that it's because I care, and want the best for them, and for them to be happy, but I do understand how overbearing and annoying that can get.
Stay Calm....
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I can get emotional over stupid things. I try not to and I recognize it happening but feel out of control over it.
Recognition is the first step.....
I can naturally be mean if I don't think carefully before I speak.
The fact that you are aware of this makes you so much better than a lot of other people who will go around and be mean without even realizing what they're doing.
Recognition is the first step to improvement, and the fact that you're willing to improve makes you a better person. Go you!
The Average.....
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I am not special or more talented than anyone else, I am literally more or less average. I guess its not bad, I don't hate it, but doesn't mean i like it.
Oh Well....
I give up very easily. I used to be a great student in school not just with studies but everything else as well because I'm a fast learner. But that didn't teach me the value of hard work because everything came easy. And now, in everything I do, if I fail, I just give up.
Edit: Thank you to everyone who replied. I'm so glad I posted this because I have gotten some great advice here and the fact that I'm not alone makes me feel a little better. Thank you.
Also thanks for all the awards. They make me feel all fuzzy inside.
Oxford Daze....
I literally went into an law interview for freaking Oxford so cocky that I'd ace it that I'd never bothered at a legal document before because while I'd got bad grades before it never really affected my opportunities, at least in terms of where I wanted to go.
Suffice to say, I was immediately vibe checked, and while the second interview went better, I am not going to Oxford.
I am certainly working harder at Uni, I want a 1st and have learned my lesson.
No In Between.
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I either think too high of myself or not enough of myself, there is no in between.
I can relate to this. I would see a really stupid thing someone does and think "How are retards like this alive?" and then five minutes later, in a different context, I would say that "I am a waste of space and worthless."
Smarter than the average bear....
I'm below average intelligence.
Everyone likes to think they're so smart because they can see inside their brains and see, with no interference, all their great and original ideas and thoughts.
And I still think smart things sometimes.
But in general, the majority of people I meet, are substantially smarter than me. Not in terms of volume of knowledge, or learned skills, just in that they are better at thinking through things logically, better at problem solving, and more reasonable.
Its humbling.
Days Gone By....
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I'm growing older. I still feel young, but I'm in my 30s.
That means 40s aren't too far away, and I know that this decade flew by fast, I'm certain that the 40s will too, which mean 50s, are also not too far away, then 60s, etc.
There's nothing I can do about it, but I do miss my 20s sometimes and I know I can't ever be that again. That is rough to have to accept.
Saving Face...
I have a serious/angry looking facial expression by default and I have to over compensate by grinning/slightly smiling all the time so people don't think I'm angry or upset.
Get that. It's especially exhausting if you work in customer service, like me. Sometimes I feel like I should find work in a factory instead.
A Terrible Life...
It's not my fault that I had a terrible life, but it's the only one I will ever have and I often struggle to come to terms with the fact that I'll never get to say I had a healthy childhood, teenage years and early adulthood. I ended up being very damn messed up and I envy the people who had it good or at least decent.
I'm fine now, but I lost it on things you go through just as a kid, and it's hard on me.
EDIT: I know people see this as an annoying Reddit trend, but thank you so much! I've been on Reddit for almost two years and it's my first award. Feels like a hug as I just wanted to share my experience, nothing more behind it.
Hush....
I am a naturally quiet person even though I don't want to be and people always say I'm quiet but I can't change.
Me too! Also when I have something to contribute to the conversation people's eyes immediately fixate on me which makes me anxious and more inclined to be quiet again. :(
Do you Validate?
I need validation and to be told I'm doing good. I never had any issues with it growing up, but it feels good now to know I'm doing a good job or the right thing, but i still feel ashamed for wanting to hear it so often.
There's nothing wrong with wanting validation. It's important to understand this. There is no shame in it.
However, what is important is: where the validation comes from.
It should come from you and you alone! Be happy with your work and be proud! It shouldn't matter if other people pat you on the back for it, or even tell you they hate it! It's your own feelings about it that matter!
Work hard and be proud you did so accordingly my friend. :)
Got to have Friends....
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I don't make meaningful friendships, can be friends with someone for years and then they move and within a day it's like they never existed for me.
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Ticket scalpers. How do you the audacity to say that's a job?
Actual burglars have more empathy.
Disrespectful
Out Of Office Summer GIF by Merge MansionGiphy"There are debt collectors who call relatives of the deceased to pay off their debts when they are not legally obligated to."
Top_Gun_2021
Shady. Shady.
"Australian Real Estate Agents. Laws don't seem to apply to them. Just as dodgy in sales and rentals alike. Never seen anything like it overseas."
snave_
"I'm in the US, it can vary state by state but my state is pretty strict on realtor laws. Some states require attorney review and there are definitely penalties for being reported for shady sh*t. It does require consumer reporting though."
ilostmytaco
Etransfer
"Where I live, tax info was leaked and now scammers are targeting low income individuals/families (people earning under 30,000 per year) with etransfer scams. I got one the other day that was an etransfer warning that 240$ 'a family member sent me' was about to expire."
SnowyInuk
"That’s disgusting. The scammers know what they’re doing, they know the harm they cause people and yet they don’t care."
surelysandwitch
Should be illegal...
"MLM managers. Not the low level idiots that get suckered into it, they suck too for trying to bring new people into that sh*tshow, but the people who create them know exactly what they are doing and are pretty much the only ones who profit off of it. Should be illegal. Pyramid schemes are illegal. None of them ever get the just desserts except occasionally by vigilantes I assume."
Wereno
I hate debt collectors. Yeah, you calling me one hundred times a week is going to miraculously make money appear.
Animals
Giphy"Paparazzi."
VictorBlimpmuscle
"I met Jack Gleeson (King Joffrey from Game of Thrones) at a bus stop in Dublin. Really nice guy but he said he quit acting due to people being nasty online and constant hounding from paparrazi. He's happier now but it sucks that he was pushed away from a career he was quite good at."
goobi94
Scumbags
"The pastors at mega churches whom ask their followers for money for private jets. Absolute scum to abuse others faith for your own greed."
ichancho
"Brian Tamaki is a greedy freaking pig, he takes advantage of so many people who are already struggling. Every time he’s in the local news (which btw is often) I get more and more pissed off at him and his wife. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brian_Tamaki "
surelysandwitch
it’s a thing???
“'Dating Expert.' Sadly it’s a thing. It’s basically a self appointed title that requires no training or qualifications. What’s worse, is that I have a female friend who uses one. It’s very much a blind leading the blind situation."
Mean_Manufacturer_61
"Most of the self proclaimed “dating coaches” I know are women in their late 30s or early 40s who have never been married or had a longer relationship."
ipozgaj
EVIL
"Poachers. Especially big game poachers who purposefully hunt nearly extinct animals from species they know they are on the brink."
"I know there are poachers that come from rural villages who are trying to just put food on the table, which has my sympathy but poachers who come from money and hunt down animals minding their business in most shelters or restricted areas just to put a head on their wall as a trophy are absolutely heinous."
GetterdoneObiwan
I See It All
miss cleo fraud GIFGiphy"Psychic Mediums. Specifically those who prey on the grieving."
JamesDeadite
"I've always found it interesting how many magicians go after people like this. I think it's because they know what it takes to trick people for the art. The slight of hand and mentalism. And they abhor people who use these tactics for such sh*tty purposes."
34HoldOn
I want so bad to believe in psychics and mediums. What say we on that topic?
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For some odd reason I love the things burning. Anything, food, pots, pans. You name it. Weird.
Blow
fire burning GIFGiphy"Matches/candles on a birthday cake. I remember lighting matches as a kid purely to blow them out and inhale that sweet match-y smell."
semispooked
"guilty good"
"I work at a Chemical plant. We make a highly acidic product that is dark blue, viscus, highly corrosive, and smells exactly like Fruit Loops. It is incredibly disturbing."
Turin082
"Organic chemistry has many 'guilty good' smells. Thiophosgene (sulfur derivative of a chemical weapon used extensively in WW1) apparently smells like meat. Phosgene is used to make polycarbonate, thiophosgene is used to make some sulfur-containing molecules which eventually end up in therapeutic drugs."
HammerTh_1701
I can't huff it...
"Paint, specifically house paint. I love the smell. But anytime I hear that anyone is painting a room or their house, I volunteer. I just love sitting on the floor in a room that's been freshly painted, closing my eyes and just inhaling that slightly chemically, slightly creamy aroma."
Neowza
A Hint of French...
"A fish and chips shop burnt down as couple blocks from work a few years ago. The whole neighborhood smelled amazing for days. Just the slight hint of French fries. Nothing overpowering. It was so awesome. Until I found out someone was trapped in the fire and died."
stevey_frac
Drag
Drag Racing Vegas GIF by Don Schumacher RacingGiphy"Race fuel. Instantly puts me in a good mood as it reminds me of going to the drag races with my dad when I was young."
garfnodie
Fuel and matches get me too. And they sort of go together. Interesting.
Just like the Movie...
Johnny Depp Drinking GIFGiphy"The water from the Pirates of the Caribbean ride. Mmm, bromine."
Stalkerslovemy
"This is one of my favorite scents of all time, and Disney is very aware that people enjoy it. Evidently it’s a lot harder to recreate than just adding bromine to water."
cash4panties
"black widow".
"There's a chicken wing restaurant near my house that has a challenge sauce called "black widow." The owner claims it to be around 500,000 scovilles. A few years back some buddies and I decided to try them, the sauce was a dark molasses color and smelled almost like a BBQ sauce, no hint of the danger that lurked at all. We each grabbed one wing and it went terribly. I don't know how something so spicy could smell so innocent."
Final-Chapter
Endless Weekend
"Hotel/rented rooms whenever you go on vacation. There's this particular smell that just says 'you are on vacation,' especially on a beach/swimming trips/out-of-the-town vacays."
Yummy_Llama
"Bath and Body Works has a plug-in scent called Endless Weekend that replicates that scent (to my humble nose)."
Exxcentrica
"oh no..."
"Someone you are attracted to's body odors. Anyone else who is slightly unhygienic smells repulsive."
Mini_gunslinger
"I remember back in high school a girl leaned over, sniffed me, told me that I smelled really good, and asked me what cologne I was wearing. I asked if she was joking, and she's like, no, you smell really good. When I told her I had just gotten done with gym class, she gets a small 'oh no...' look on her face and turns away. I think we both had a revelation that day."
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That Smell
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crestfxllen
I do love the smell of plastics and inflatables. Ahh....
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It's hard to imagine how to go on without the lost object–whatever it may be–but over time, it becomes a distant memory and we move on.
That is until we magically find ourselves presented with this opportunity proposed by Redditor mikehotel288, who asked:
"You find yourself in a room with everything you’ve ever lost in your life. What do you look for first?"
There are necessities people cannot do without.
No More Dry Lips Ever Again
"Gonna be a lot of chapstick in that room."
– camefromxbox
There are things that bring us comfort and are irreplaceable.
Safety Blanket
"My baby blanket. It became tattered over the years—to the point where I couldn’t reasonably wash it anymore—so I had to throw it away a little while back."
"I have heavily regretted that decision. I was really attached to it (hence it being in tatters), but I really wish that I kept what was left of it instead of throwing it away. Just knowing that I’d still have it would be a huge comfort to me."
– Uearie
Sentimental Heirloom
"The pendant my dad had made for me with my grandmother’s engagement diamond. It was 2 carats. It disappeared from a Las Vegas hotel room 20 years ago. It was hidden deep in a suitcase where it would not have been easy to find. It was just GONE. Cops didn’t do anything. Didn’t even come to take my statement. Cleaning lady said she thought she saw an elderly man enter my room. The guy I was with was not sympathetic in the least. Entire situation was f**ked. I’m still so upset about it."
– MaritimeDisaster
Lone Shark
"My plastic shark toy I lost when I was 10. Ain't no f'king way it just VANISHED."
– Guilty_As_Charged__
Not everything lost is tangible.
Tick Tock
"The time I wasted."
– shinyfennec
It Holds Value
"My private key with 6 BTC in it."
– Significant_Mirror19
"I didn't lose one, but I'll check my room for yours just in case."
– Smodphan
Finding Purpose
"The reason I walked into the room."
– Lloyd_lyle
Lost Opportunity
"That one girl i spoke to on omegle lol"
– h-amishh
If only we get to reunite with those we've lost.
The Loved Family Member
"My grandpa."
– Splatty_boi_420
Grieving Parent
"My daughter. She’ll be in my brother’s arms. So I’ll find both things I care to look for."
– SeeTheFence
Missing Mom
"My mom. She died of cancer in 2017. She never got to meet my daughter. I miss the hell out of her and wish she was still part of my family’s life."
– X-Arkturis-X
The Animals That Come Into Our Lives
"My pets that have passed: especially my horse, Blue. It's been 4 years, but it feels like just yesterday."
– Baciandrio
While many of these scenarios are unlikely, the thread gave people an opportunity to reflect on the things that made a strong impression on their lives.
Sometimes, the memories of the things we've lost–whether they are random objects or sources of love–is all we have.
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