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There are so many secrets a single person harbors throughout their lives.

There are secrets they tell some others, secrets they tell only the closest to them; secrets they tell no one, and then secrets they don't even tell themselves.

Occasionally one of those secrets slips out. And that secret has the power to change the space in which you live your life.

It can bring others closer or isolate them even further. It can do serious damage or be a healing agent.

It all depends on the secret.

Redditor dougy181 asked:

"What is a dark secret that you have?"

Here were some of those answers.

Pandemic Secrets

"Last year I went into the hospital for Covid. I had to be put on a vent for three weeks, put into a medical coma, resuscitated a couple of times and was pretty close to death for those entire three weeks."

"My dark secret is I wanted to die. I was going through a divorce and suffering from severe depression. I just felt like my world was over and there was nothing to live for."

"I was almost happy that a virus was going to do what I was too chicken shit to do myself. I was accepting that death was coming and didn't care to fight it."

"It wasn't until while in my medical coma they had my family come to tell me bye as they thought I wouldn't make it through the night that I decided I wanted to live. I am an only child and was raised by a single mother. I heard her telling me how much she loved me and that I was such a fighter and to keep fighting."

"That was a moment that turned everything around. It gave me a will and want to live. I had a turnaround that night and lived and slowly started recovering. It has been a long and hard road to recovery and I am still not there yet. Had I not had that moment of hearing her I am pretty sure I would have died."

"I have told my mom about how much hearing her meant to me, but I have told no one about how I was ready and wanting to die at that time. If the hospital hadn't lifted their Covid protocols to allow my mom into the room to say goodbye I think I would have just accepted death."-throwingaway_316

To The Grave

"My best friend from childhood came over to my college dorm to hang out one night. He bought coke and pills from other guys living on my hall for a party he was going to, and honestly I was impressed with him for being so well-versed in the buying of drugs and charismatic with my dorm mates."

"Before he left he told me not to tell his mother what he was doing but to tell her he loved her if he died and I thought something was wrong, but I let him go because we had plans for the next day and I figured he had just developed a dark sense of humor in the time since we’d last seen each other."

"In retrospect he’d shown all of the signals, but I refused to see them, so I let him drive away. He didn’t make it; he crashed his car many hours later that night, with no seatbelt, probably high."

"His mother asked me what happened. I didn’t tell her anything because I wanted her to think it was an innocent accident. I didn’t want her to know what he got into. I’m still keeping his secret."-jrm2003

Fake It Til You Make It But Srs

"I had a friend create a fake High school diploma for me, then I used it to get a job teaching English in a foreign country. Then the company that hired me created a fake BA in English for me."

"That was then used for me to get my residence permit.....Yup."-Naive-Camel-7364

These secrets have been bursting at the seams to come out for ages.

Gotta Eat To Live Gotta Steal To Eat

"Years ago, I got a summer job at a grocery store. I was a teenager, from a poor family, just trying to get a job so that we could afford food. My mom couldn't afford to feed us in the summer without the school lunches, but she made slightly too much to qualify for food stamps."

"If you've ever been poor, you know how it goes. The manager was a complete a**wipe who fired me two weeks in because, and I quote, 'I just don't like your personality.'"

"We had never actually spoken until that point. I cried because my mom was counting on me to be able to pay for the groceries that week and I told him that. He told me I was being dramatic."

The store had these barcodes they would stick on things to mark them down if they were expired. I realized that I still had the rolls of printed-up stickers in my pocket when I got home because I had been marking things down that day. I copied the stickers off onto sticky paper and stole probably a few thousand dollars of groceries that summer."

"I technically did pay for the groceries because I was checking them out at the self-checkout and paying money for them, but I was getting salmon fillets and racks of ribs for $2, big veggie trays for $1, expensive cheese for $.99, etc. I was careful not to be too greedy and not try to buy a cartful of expensive sh*t at a time."

"I would do several smaller transactions at self checkouts and spread it out over about a dozen stores (it was a big, sh*tty, national corporate chain). I paid always in cash. I never got caught. I told my mom that I got an academic scholarship and that's where I got the money for the groceries. I don't feel bad about it and the statute of limitations is expired anyway."-ScyllaOfTheDepths

Bébé From Beyond

"My aunt kept hearing other baby voices on her baby monitor - not her baby. There were no babies next door but it must have been picking up some other baby somewhere and as I am in I.T. I knew this."

"But as a joke I told her I saw a program on TV and that baby monitors can pick up deceased children. I thought she knew I was joking but then I find out she got a priest in to bless the house."

"Then she put it on the market for cheap and moved out. I think she lost 50-100 grand. She never mentioned it to anyone else in the family why she was moving and I just kept quiet and kept it to myself for all these years feeling guilty."-Happy5Day

Petty Legends

"I had a former coworker who was a total cunt to me. She straight up bullied me at work. Twice i walked into a room while she was actually sh*t talking me by name."

"A few months after quitting that job, I looked up a revenge prank site, and had a box of cow sh*t mailed to her at my former workplace."

"According to other people still working there, she threw an ugly crying tantrum the day she opened the package and was coddled by upper management. Sweet, sweet vengeance."

"I didn't tell my live-in partner about what I had done, he would have been livid and scared for the feds to show."-SummerNothingness

Obligatory Poop Entry

"Summer camp, I was 13/14 years old. Seven days no poop, in the middle of the eighth night I wake up because I'm exploding."

"I don't reach the bathroom on time, so I pooped almost everywhere while running, I reached the bathroom, washed and then went back to my tent to sleep."

"The next day everyone thought an animal like a bear or deer had entered the camp and sh*t everywhere. No one ever found out that that bear was me."-afabri

Are these bringing any secrets up to the surface for you?

Black Widow

"My maternal grandmother, who recently died, murdered at least one of her husbands for his money, and possibly more (because she had several who died under mysterious circumstances)."

"She was never convicted, but the dude died from rare earth metal poisoning that developed from years of eating tainted food."

"She cooked every single one of his meals during that period of time. Notably, she did not get poisoned herself."-Doomkauf

Remove The Parent

"My mom had a friend who had 2 kids of her own, both girls. Sometimes we'd go over and visit, and normally i got the impression that my mom's friend was a pretty sh*t person. Her kids were a little f**ked up too, but normally in more of a 'I don't wanna behave the way you want me to' way than a 'I'm doing this to be a dick' way, you know?"

"One time we went to visit and I was like maybe 5 or 6 years old they were misbehaving pretty bad, being like general trolls. Eventually they calmed down and I was playing some normal a** kids game when they thought it'd be funny to run around with their clothes off."

"Obviously I did not participate and was a bit mortified, but also maybe felt a little something I never had before. Anyways, eventually the mom caught up and found them both 'hiding' in the room with me. We knew they'd be punished: they were misbehaving pretty damn bad. Their mom then dragged the oldest naked into the bathroom."

"Locked outside, I heard her beat the f**k out of her child. Heard the whole thing, the yelling, the crying, and the meaty f**king slaps landing. The kid walked out of there with bruises and a black eye and went to put on clothes. It's one of the earliest memories I still have. Never even occurred to me a parent could possibly do that to their own kid."-XZombathonX

A Son No Matter What

"Not exactly dark but I'm pretty sure my son isn't biologically mine. There was a lot of doubt about the date of conception and multiple people his mother cheated on me with. But after months of being promised he was mine I foolishly just accepted it or told myself to anyway."

"Cut to him being 3 months old she decides she's scared of him and can't look after him. He's now 7 years old and never sees his mum, she's vanished and doesn't even check in with him."

"He's my son no matter what anyone could tell me as far as I'm concerned at this point though, I've raised him and loved him unconditionally for the past 7 years and will continue to do for the rest of his life. And if I'm being honest I'm also really scared to get a DNA test more than anything for fear that if I found out he isn't mine I wouldn't love him or look at him the same way."

"I don't think I would ever do that personally but you just never know how a highly emotional situation is going to make you react or feel sometimes."-niell2

Secrets are highly emotional and complex pieces of information that we've given a bit of undue weight to.

The fact is, that truth that you're keeping down low has the potential to really set you free—if you work WITH it.

But working against a life of secrets is no way to keep a life alive.

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