Deaf People Reveal What They "Hear" Inside Of Their Heads Every Day
The hearing impaired are fascinating, vibrant people. They take a life challenge and use it to live successful lives.
_Redditor __shitusernametaken_askeda fascinating question. Deaf people of Reddit, If you were born deaf and have never heard the English language, is your inner monologue in sign language? If not, what is it? A thought I'm sure many of us have wondered. We are all constantly having an inner dialogue with ourselves and we hear our own voices. What do they hear if they've never been able to hear their own sound?
I HEAR YOU.
Deaf kid at school said (in sign language) that his inner monologue is in sign language.
My cousin is deaf, never heard English before. She's read enough lips and tried to speak enough words that she just thinks in her own interpretation of English, which is how it looks from reading lips.
LEARNING FOR LOVE.
My wife was born deaf so I've learned sign with her.
An interesting observation with myself as a hearing individual, when I think back to old memories from before I met her and learned any sign, I often picture myself thinking or doing the signs for what I'm saying. Learning it has altered my memories.
I'm deaf and yes I when I think up a sentence , I do see it in ASL. I also have a inner voice along with signing since I grew up speaking while signing.
USE YOUR WORDS.
I became deaf at age 2 so I have no memory of hearing or hearing myself talking, but my inner monologue is in words. It probably helped that I went to speech therapy and learned to speak and I don't hang out with other deaf people very much. Despite having 100% loss I hang out with hearing people as a matter of course.
My dreams are also like that - in my dreams I can hear and talk normally. I am 37 now.
I don't have one. Thoughts are more abstract, the only time I think in words is when I read it, or before wanting to say something/counting.
THE VISUAL LANGUAGE.
My son is deaf (with cochlear implants). In researching some of the challenges and interesting things the brain does, I found that the auditory area of pre-lingually deaf children's brain gets appropriated for visual processing if it doesn't get utilized for sound. This (along with the other comments) would make me think that a visual inner monologue is most likely for most deaf, un-implanted people who were born without hearing.
HEARING IN MOTION.
I'm hard of hearing but was deaf deaf until I was about 9 years old. I mostly think in images and motion. Sometimes I do think in simple phrases or weirdly think in screams. My husband says that I do small yells when something very slightly upsetting happens I can hear a bit but don't notice myself doing it.
USE WHAT YOU KNOW.
I was born deaf, and my inner monologue tends to be in mostly images, with the occasional ASL signs and written words mixed in. Honestly it can be a little bit of a chore to translate my thoughts into conveyable language!
You can't change the volume of your inner voice. Go ahead, try to scream.
LET'S GIVE THEM SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT.
A lot of the time my inner monologue can be imagery/written words and I generally talk to myself when I need to when I need discuss having a sort of conversation with my inner monologue.
ONLY IN MY DREAMS.
Was born deaf as far as I know, but wasn't diagnosed with deafness until 4 y/o. I went to a bit of speech therapy, but grew up around hearing people and wore hearing aids.
I dream with sounds and speech, but my dreams tend to focus on the sense of feeling more I've found. As in, I can feel what everyone in the dream is feeling physically, and on top of that, my dreams are very, very detailed.
Imagine a film, I usually dream in third person, and notice everything that makes a sound with my dream showing shots of glasses clinking, and such.
I know someone who is totally deaf, unable to wear any aids to hear, and I remember signing to her about dreams years ago, and she was saying/signing that she _"hears" _tones of different forms. I imagine she's on about when I take my hearing aids out and lie there with my eyes closed and day dream. There's a sort of varying tone, sometimes dull, sometimes high pitched, sometimes a fuzzy static noise, that rings out within my head, which is annoying because I never get to listen to silence.
USE EMOTIONS AND ART.
Late to this! Born deaf, my family didn't know until I was over 1 year old. Took tons of speech therapy and learned ASL. Grew up isolated in a mainstream school with an interpreter.
Like what u/Caoranach said, I think mostly in images. Like clips from gif or movies or real life, even photography (with dramatic effect, if needed). With ASL signs (the movement and emotions behind it, not disemboweled arms) and written words thrown in (mixed with the sounds of what I assume it sounds like and written), but lip reading is there too. The words is just there when I lip read to myself mentally, but the movement is accurate (to me at least). Sometime I would accidentally lip read to myself in real life, not just in my mind.
The best way to explain, I code-switch mentally when I need to. For school, I think in English and ASL. When I talk to myself, I lip read. When I think stupid stuff or daydream, the likes, I do images.
I moved to the United States when I was seven. My inner monologue changed from Spanish to English. Have you ever had anything like that where your inner monologue changed between images to sign as you grew older? Do you prefer one over the other? Also I've noticed that people will sign things different to mean the same thing. I grew up with a couple deaf kids in my school and they signed different kind of like an accent. Would you say you have an accent when you sign?
BOOKS ARE THE KEY TO ALL DIALOGUE.
I'm Deaf and I am born that way.
I'm an avid reader and gamer when I was young, and as I grew up into my teenager years, I began writing fanfictions and roleplays a lot. As such, my inner monologue is in text form.
Before I got hooked on books, who began it all, I vaguely remembering having an inner monologue in sign language.
Ironically in my dreams, in the dreams that featured myself, most of the time I was telepathic if I spoke to someone. I can 'sense' my surroundings as it is, in place of 'hearing'. With that said there's not a lot of communication in my dreams (spoken words or signs). Mostly gestures and meaningful glances, which makes me feel like I was living an adventure of some sort.
I HEAR ME.
I wasn't born deaf but I did lose my hearing and memory when I became sick with spinal meningitis at age of 2.5 (bonus irrelevant bit of story; I was pronounced dead). Previously I had vocabulary of estimated 2500 words so that may have subconsciously aided development of my inner-monologue.
My inner-monologue might seem strange so I would like to give a little story first. I've learn to read lips and speak English long before going to school where I would later learn S.E.E.---signing exact English. I did learn a new way to communicate which is through facial expressions and body language; eventually zeroed in to the lips which was doing the most movements. That is what I couldn't figure out at the time while everything else was easy. For example, an angry face on my father was seen after I was stopped from shooting his friend with bb gun for fun meant great disapproval regardless of how his lips moved. Eventually I began to understand how to read lips through series of events and I do suspect speech therapy played a role because I had to copy their lips in order to better articulate words.
My inner-monologue is combination of feeling emotions and _"hearing myself" _talk. If I imagine another person talking, it is always my voice that I feel while talking whilst having detailed mind of how to spell each and every words being said. And I am at the same time imagining their lip movements. It's almost as if I am reliving the situation, the temperature, the weather, the emotions, people walking by, etc.
When it comes to memorizing sequences of numbers and/or letters, I actually can think of numbers and letters with aid of having memory of my own hand finger spelling or signing numbers to fill in areas I couldn't remember.
Sorry, I rarely tell stories and I am lazy when it comes to structuring English to improve understanding for readers so I hope it was understandable.
Mom wasn't born deaf but she did become deaf at an early age. So most of her inner monologue is mostly Russian but then with ASL signs sprinkled in. For clarification why Russian she was born in Russia and that is why her inner monologue is in Russian. Also she can speak Russian very fluently and is able to read Russian from another person's lips. (Which is how she talks with my grandmother) Great question btw!
USE PROPER ENGLISH.
I was born hearing but lost it right after birth from medication that saved my life. But I wasn't completely deaf, I could still hear very loud bass sounds without hearing aids and get to like 75% hearing with aids. I can wear headphones without hearing aids to listen to music, but it usually has to be at max to hear any words and I miss a lot of the higher instruments.
Anyway, I learned English and I'm actually pretty adept at learning languages in general. My ASL is just terrible because I never use it. So my inner monologue is in English, but I don't hear it as much as kind-of feel it some times. It's not like I'm making the clear sounds because I can't even hear all of the sounds of English. It's just silent words that I guess are being said. It's hard to explain.
LET ME THINK ABOUT THAT.
Funny thing, I asked a mute friend a pretty similar question. "What does your inner voice sound like?" She came back 2 weeks later saying _"your question pretty much gave me an existential crisis because what does my voice sound like in my head?" _She didn't really know how to respond even after the two weeks of contemplating it. Pretty much, there's something there but it's not exactly subtitles from what she stated.
NO MATTER WHAT THEY HEAR... "DEAF IS BEAUTIFUL!"
I'm deaf. I was born with a serious hearing loss. I grew up in a deaf school until I was transferred to a mainstreamed public school with hearing students in my 7th grade. Now I'm majoring in Civil Engineering Technology in Rochester Institute of Technology (and planning in transferring to Video Game Development major soon).
So, to answer your question, I think in ASL (American Sign Language). I guess deaf people's thinking process is little different from hearing people. When I think, it's like I'm seeing myself signing from either my point of view or third person view and when I'm imagine a hearing person speaking, I imagine him/her actually signing instead of speaking because I can understand him/her that way. Also, we don't always have a sign for every word in ASL. Sometimes when we want to think of a word that we don't have a sign. We fingerspell it. It's like imagining a letter by letter but only in hand shapes. I think in fingerspelling a lot when I'm reading an english sentence.
I'm lucky to be conditioned to think in fingerspelling while reading because there are a lot of deaf people who have problem with reading and writing because they are thinking in signs while reading an english sentence. ASL language don't use articles like "a, an, the" and several more important words in the english language like "is, are, was, are" etc in their sentences. So when they read an english sentence, they are skipping those important english words when they're signing in their minds. So, I think that is why deaf people are typically bad at reading and writing in english. I was one of them until I transferred to a mainstreamed school for better education that taught me to read and write properly. I'm still not great with english language but I'm glad that I'm much better at it than most deaf people. I hope this answered your question well.
Have you ever been reading a book, watching a movie, or even sitting down for a fantastical cartoon and began to salivate when the characters dig into some doozy of a made up food?
You're not alone.
Food is apparently fertile ground for creativity. Authors, movie directors, and animators all can't help but put a little extra time and effort into the process of making characters' tasty delights mouthwatering even for audiences on the other side of the screen.
Read on for a perfect mixture of nostalgia and hunger.
AllWhammyNoMorals asked, "What's a fictional food you've always wanted to try?"
Some people were all about the magical foods eaten in the magical places. They couldn't help but wish they could bite into something with fantastical properties and unearthly deliciousness.
"Enchanted golden apple" -- DabbingIsSo2015
"The Minecraft eating sounds make me hungry" -- FishingHobo
"Gotta love that health regeneration" -- r2celjazz
"Pretty sure those are based off the golden apples that grant immortality. Norse mythology I think?" -- Raven_of_Blades
Take Your Pick
"Nearly any food from Charlie and the Chocolate factory" -- CrimsonFox100
"Came here to say snozzberries!" -- Utah_Writer
"Everlasting Gobstoppers #1, but also when they're free to roam near the chocolate river and the entire environment is edible." -- devo9er
"Lembas" -- Roxwords
"The one that fills you with just a bite? My fat a** would be making sandwiches with two lembas breads and putting bacon, avocado and cheese inside. Then probably go for some dessert afterwards. No wonder why those elves are all skinny, eating just one measly bite of this stuff." -- sushister
Some people got stuck on the foods they saw in the cartoons they watched growing up. The vibrant colors, the artistic sounds, and the exaggerated movements all come together to form some good-looking fake grub.
The One and Only
"Krabby patty 🍔" -- Cat_xox
"And a kelp shake" -- titsclitsntennerbits
"As a kid I always pretended burgers from McDonalds were Krabby Patties, heck from time to time I still do for the nostalgia of it all. Many of my friends did the same thing." -- Thisissuchadragtodo
"The pizza from an extremely goofy movie. The stringy cheese just looked magical lol" -- ES_Verified
"The pizza in the old TMNT cartoon as well." -- gate_of_steiner85
"Only bested by the pizza from All Dogs Go to Heaven." -- Purdaddy
Get a Big Old Chunk
"Those giant turkey drumsticks in old cartoons that characters would tear huge chunks out of. Those things looked amazing, turkey drumsticks in real life suck and are annoying to eat."
Slurp, Slurp, Slurp
"Every bowl of ramen on any anime, ever." -- Cat_xox
"Studio Ghibli eggs and bacon" -- DrManhattan_DDM
"Honestly, any food in anime. I swear to god half the budget no matter what the studio goes into making the food look absolutely delicious." -- Viridun
Finally, some highlighted the things that aren't quite so far-fetched, but still far enough away that it's nothing we'll be eating anytime soon.
That tease can be enough to make your mouth water.
What's In It??
"Butter beer" -- Damn_Dog_Inappropes
"came here to say this. i was pretty disappointed with the universal studio version which was over the top sweet. it was more of a butterscotch root beer. i imagine butter beer to be something more like butter and beer, which wouldn't be crazy sweet, but would have a very deep rich flavor" -- crazyskiingsloth
Slice of the Future
"The microwave pizzas in back to the future two" -- biggiemick91
"I've been fascinated with those for years! They just look so good!" -- skoros
As Sweet As They Had
"The Turkish Delight from Lion Witch & Wardrobe. The real ones I had weren't bad but nothing special." -- spoon_shaped_spoon
"Came here to say this. I know it's a real thing, but I always imagined that it must have been amazing to betray your siblings over." -- la_yes
"You're used to freely available too sweet sweets. For a WW2 era schoolkid, it would have represented all the sweets for an entire year." -- ResponsibleLimeade
Here's hoping you made it through the list without going into kitchen for some snack you didn't actually need.
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When a movie rakes in a ton of cash at the box office, the studio that made it has only one thing on its mind: "How do we keep shaking this money tree?"
Unfortunately, that means they make sequels, sometimes sequels on sequels on sequels.
At times, the sequels are solid. They tie nicely into the first film, emphasizing the qualities that brought folks out to the first one, while immersing them into that world for another great couple of hours.
But sometimes, it's wildly clear that the longterm planning behind a sequel was minimal at best. These part two's are truly terrible experiences, made even more disappointing by the excitement created by everyone's love for the first.
Some Redditors shared the worst examples.
Sullivans97 asked, "What is the worst movie sequel ever?"
Plenty of contributions to the thread were noteworthy simply because the Redditors' deep hatred for a sequel spurred them to write a very entertaining review.
"Son of the Mask. Worst sequel. Worst movie. Worst piece of entertainment. Worst experience to sit through as a human being."
Oddly Specific Analogy
"Independence Day: Resurgence."
"What the fu** was that giant heap of steaming camel sh**?"
Two Key Elements
"The plot is mostly driven by Mushu acting like a real piece of sh**, and Shang gets turned into the butt monkey of the movie as a consequence."
"Vastly inferior to the first one."
Just Horrible Decisions Every Step of the Way
"Where is Speed 2?"
"Speeding cruise ship (Zzzzzzz)"
"WTF were they thinking?"
Other people chose to discuss the sequels that, for whatever reason, chose not to include the key attributes that made the first movie so good.
Whether it was the absence of character, actor, or overarching theme, the experience was as puzzling as it was frustrating.
Insert Muscle Here
"Kindergarten Cop 2. Yes it does exist and it is a bad as it sounds. Dolph Lundgren takes over the role of Schwarzenegger." -- TheBassMeister
"Bro, don't be such a jabroni. Imagine, a super ripped, super smart cop-in a mesh tank top-named officer Dolph Lundgren." -- why_not_fandy
"Ugh wtf the movie was great why make another one" -- c_girl_108
"American Psycho 2. It wasn't even originally intended to be a sequel, they just shoved the name on it and added loose references to Patrick Bateman. Awful." -- Mountain_Situation89
"Mila kunas who is in it was told it was a different name and was pissed when they ended up making it a 'sequel' " -- Imfrank123
"Yea, that's the thing. The movie would have been a decent film if it was just a serial killer film and not an AP sequel." -- JennyBean2000
"It had some okay parts, but what they did to Justin Long's character completely undercuts the meaning of the first movie. And no Ryan Reynolds."
Last, some people realized that any film franchise that goes beyond two installments is just asking for things to go downhill in a hurry.
Once you cross three--and even four--your just too far from the source.
What Even Is Home Alone 5?
"Home Alone 3, 4, and 5" -- theWet_Bandits
"I honestly enjoyed 3, sure it made no sense at all, but I can look past that and really enjoyed it. 4 and 5 on the other hand, I barely remember what 4 was about and had completely forgotten that 5 existed until just now." -- botbattler30
End of the Mummy Era
"The third Mummy movie." -- goshawkgirl
"Fun fact: The trailer for Mummy 3 has Brendan Fraser saying "here we go again" and Ben Stiller thought that line was ironically hilarious in terms of cranking out soulless sequels and it inspired the 'here we go again....again' line in the fake trailers at the beginning of Tropic Thunder." -- Call_Me_Koala
Part of the Reboot Frenzy
"Not to repeat others here (hopefully), but the 4th Indiana Jones movie should never have been made."
"For what it is worth, The odd numbers are great, the even numbers are terrible with the last one being one being Steven Segal bad."
So there you have it. A full list of movies to avoid at all costs no matter how bored you are flicking through Netflix lists.
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Oftentimes I like to do my best Ghostface impression and aggressively ask people what their favorite scary movies are. Because I personally have a lot! At the same time, I'm also terrified that at any point, I could end up getting my head punched off by Jason Vorhees (Part 8 of the series--best one IMO).
Real life contains the scariest horrors you could ask for. So aren't we all living in a horror movie, in a way? At least, these people sure freakin' were.
In the words of the legendary Mary Vivian Pierce in the film Pink Flamingos, “Murder merely relieves tension”. I’m sure the following Redditors felt differently.
Nothing scarier than the woods at night.
Went into a real deep woods hike for only the second time in my life.
My gps broke and had to rely on my compass. Got turned around a few times because I couldn't remember the direction I came from, and it was getting dark. Lost the trail way.
But the woods are weirdly silent in the dark and alone.
It was around 2am by the time I found the trailhead.
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My friend and I got lost late on one foggy night in the Italian countryside. There were rats all over and every once in a while we heard someone scream.
I've never been more sure I was about to get murdered than I was that night.
Could've also been a lynx, but they are much rarer in Italy.
At least she wasn’t speaking in tongues.
My mom is quite the sleep talker, but it's usually pretty short and incoherent when it happens. One night as a teenager, I woke up to her scream-yelling the Hail Mary prayer (my bedroom was across the house and upstairs).
Difficult to get back to sleep after that one.
Sometimes scary sh*t ends up just being funny coincidences. Super funny. Right?
Don’t give them any ideas.
I was exploring an abandoned mental asylum and then got the scare of my life when a scary looking person inside one of the rooms was just staring at me without moving. Turns out some joker had left a cardboard cutout there.
Don’t you hate when that happens?Evil Dead Horror GIF by Coolidge Corner TheatreGiphy
I was driving home on backcountry roads at midnight in heavy fog. Like can't see 10 feet in front of you thick. Suddenly I see an all-white silhouette running in front of the car. Every hair on my body stood up. I immediately think "oh god, oh f*ck, it's a f*cking woman in white, I'm gonna f*cking die"
Nope just a drunk who dove into the ditch.
Gotta love paranoia.
When I was about 12, my parents went out for dinner leaving me home alone. We lived out in the country, on a private road with only three other houses, surrounded by cow fields and wooded areas.
I went into the the kitchen and glanced out the window towards the trees and there in the fading light I could see a person walking slowly through the woods. They were wearing all black, moving slowly and appeared to pause behind trees. My heart started pounding so hard in my ears I couldn't hear anything else and I was weak and shaky from fear. I froze and just watched them. Would they come to the house? Where were they going?
This was before cell phones but I suddenly remembered my mom had left the number of the restaurant by the living room phone. Slowly, I made my way towards the living room, trying to watch this stranger in the woods.
Just as I entered the living room, all the lights in the entire house went out. By this time it was nearly dark outside. I started openly sobbing and in the dark I heard a weird boom like noise. That was it, I ran to my parents room, hid under their bed and sobbed. That's where my mom found me hours later (it felt like).
Well, turns out the stranger in the woods was a stupid cow that had busted through a fence, the lights going out was from an accident a few miles away (hit the power line) and the boom was the pilot light in the gas stove. Man, I have never been that scared in my life though!
I have a lot of questions.
A naked man who was covered in blood chased me across a park at 2 in the morning. I was totally alone. He just wanted money for a bus (????) and luckily nothing bad happened but I thought I was going to die.
But of course, the genuine horrors do exist. And they aren’t scary in a fun horror movie way, they’re actually terrifying because they can happen to anyone.
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I am a "baby" in a car seat in between cousins in backseat. Dad is driving. This is in the 80s and it is my aunt's insistence that I am in this seat even though I am like 5.
A sleeping semi driver is coming over into our lane and there is a cliff on other side. Basically my dad did some amazing driving but semi blew us up. I am uninjured sitting in the seat swinging my legs while everyone is unconscious. They all wake groaning. Dad doesnt wake up.
Long story short just minor scrapes and dad has broken leg. But the crunch of metal and those few seconds/minute of being the only "alive" person was quite fear inducing.
Glad they’re all ok now.
Two days after my now boyfriend told me he liked me he fell from a zip line and broke his back. Almost died. 6 months later he got into a car wreck from a drunk driver - almost died. 6 months after that, he passed out and had to have emergency brain surgery, again, almost died. I now have severe anxiety/separation anxiety/and ptsd. That whole year was a f*cking nightmare
Edit: we're both okay now, the brain injury was almost a year ago. But TBIs take a while to heal so he still has side effects. Thankfully our relationship is still strong; he's physically getting better and I'm healing emotionally too. Lucky for him, the trauma of the injuries has caused him to forget the majority of the pain and memories of those incidents.
ALWAYS wear a helmet.
Driving home from work at 23, listening to my favorite song.
I pull up to a red light, and see this guy on a motorcycle coming up next to me in the other lane. I rolled down my window to compliment his bike when he stops. He doesn't, and runs the red light. He hits a car going at least 55mph. His motorcycle shatters apart, he goes flying, hits the hood of another car, and lands on the ground and rolls into the curb (no helmet). The car he hit with his motorcycle was totaled. I had to step over his body to talk to the police. He was still alive when they got there. I regret not holding his hand. It was just a normal day, and all of a sudden it felt like the rug was pulled from out beneath me. He was only 18.
Edit: The song was Sunny by Boney M., for those curious
What did we learn today, kids? Foxes scream like humans, shadowy figures are usually cows or drunken rednecks, and once again, PLEASE WEAR A HELMET WHEN YOU RIDE ANY KIND OF BIKE.
Scary sh*t surrounds us. But where there is horror, there are heroes. So next time you think you see a scary figure in the woods, know that Bruce Campbell is probably right around the corner
I hate hypocrites. They are the bane of my existence. All you have to do is stand behind your words. How hard is that? You said them. I especially get peeved when people bloviate on a topic and condemn and holler but then when it comes to them doing it... silence.Redditor u/ErrForceOnes wanted to know about the moments people chose to curiously "pay no mind" by asking... What is a GIANT hypocrisy that no one seems to mind?
Hypocrisy is everywhere; it's like a disease. And sadly everyone does it. Some of us indulge in smaller doses than others. But some people live their life by it. Like how can you support civil servants, like police, firefighters, etc... yet try to find ways to hide money in order to not pay taxes? Tell me... I'll wait.
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Italian moms that say you're too fat then say I'm making grandma cry by not finishing my pasta.
Celebrities positioning themselves as champions for social justice while launching a clothing line with no comment on the labor conditions their garments are made in.
The Porn Industry
Why is prostitution considered a crime, but it becomes perfectly legal once a camera is put beside them?
Mirror, Mirror on the Wall...
You can get away with WAY more crap, in general, when you're attractive.
But we all kind of aspire to attractiveness and it's not like it's attractive people's fault, exactly. So what is there to be done?
So true. Money and beauty are treated like virtues and they aren't. They're luck of the draw. It probably helps you to be a better person if people assume that you are gentle and clever just by looking at your face or wallet.
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People screaming at you if you don't want Kids and Kids are the greatest thing in the World and then turn around and whine how expensive they are and how annoying yadda yadda.
Yeah see... humans are a mess. And too often then not, personal conviction and dignity are just a myth, or a punchline. Double standards have always been a way of life. And many of us have begrudgingly learned to navigate.
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If a skinny person wears something out of the ordinary, it's a fashion statement and awesome. It can even just be something like a crop top or overalls.
But God forbid a fat person wear the same thing.
The hypocrisy hypocrisy. People love to call it out but rarely notice it on themselves and if they notice it then it's something completely different or a distraction.
That's the worst. I hate that I have to hate that. But if I don't hate it, then the hate will just continue. So, really, my hate comes from my love of an end to hate. So anyone who hates my hate hates love. And we must hate anyone who hates love!
My own personal hypocrisy; When I was a lot less well off financially, delivering pizzas trying to get through college, I kept a cup of coins in my car. When a homeless person would approach me for spare change, I gave them the cup. Most of the time it was nearly full, so there was probably 20-30 dollars in there.
Now that I have a good salaried job, even if I've got a few bucks in my wallet, I tend to not even make eye contact anymore. I know it's awful, I know it makes me crappy, but the last 4-5 years have made me a jaded craphead towards people in general. I used to be so hopeful and I wanted to help everyone, and tried to live a life that reflected that.
Now, while my general and political morality is pretty much the same, my personal morality has gotten more grey. I'd jaded, I hate people, I assume the worst of people I used to assume the best of. I don't really care about the strangers around me like I used to, but I still expect everyone else to.
It's so freaking frustrating when it becomes entrenched. "You did this, it's your fault" "you should've known to do x, its your fault" Yeah bro your problems aren't my problems and if all you do is make excuses and blame me for them, it's not going to be my fault when you don't develop as a person and accomplish your dreams. I'm sure they'll find someone to blame though.
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Politicians work part time, are given free housing, education, and health care, and exempt from the everyday violence we experience, but refuse to lift a finger to help us.
Just speak a truth and live it. Yes, it maybe hard. But what part of life isn't? Hypocrisy is just lying. Plain and simple. And it's a sin to lie.
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